happy halloween BOO!!!!!!

happy halloween!! just heard from my mom this caucasian family who just moved to Singapore six months ago were reported to the police for decorating their house with creepy halloween stuff like cobwebs, skulls etc. the silly Singaporean neighbours got so disturbed they called the police. SO SILLY RIGHT!!! HAHAHAHAHA laughed my head off it is so typical of Singaporeans! today i reached home early after chinese lesson and slept till like 7 hahahaha i wont be able to sleep tonight so i should just take the time to study for chinese!

love this song to bits. thanks to mason.

Artist: Blink-182 Lyrics
Song: Stay Together For The Kids Lyrics

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right x4

AND MY ALL TIME EMO EMO FAVOURITE, and to everyone who has ever believed in me, shown me love, taught me about life, been tolerant about my ways, helped me, guided me through my toughest times, and been such a babe to me, this is for all you besties/friends/loved ones! i love ya all ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Artist: Good Charlotte Lyrics
Song: Always And Forever Lyrics

Always
Always and Forever
Always
Always and Forever
Sitting here and thinkin back doing time when I was young
My memories good as day
I'm listening to the dishes cling you were downstairs you would sing songs of praise and all the time we'd laugh at you and all the time that you stay true to us and I will say

Said I thank you
Will always thank you
More than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you
Theres nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always
Always and forever

You were my mom you were my dad the only thing I ever had was you
It's true
Even when the time got hard you were there to let us know when we get through
You showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my God
You told me that not everyone knows the truth

And I thank you
Will always thank you
More than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you
Will always love you
Theres nothing I won't do to say these words to you that
You will live forever
Forever and ever
Forever and ever

Said I thank you will always thank you more than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That I thank you will always thank you more than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you there's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever

xoxo happy halloween loves

maybe cos she heard that i rhyme hardcore

can you keep up?
my bestie


my bestie

allllllllllllright guess what, yesterday i updated my blog TWICE. really. and the entries weren't short. cos i did matthew's thingy on here. but argh blogger is so stupid both were lost. whatever! later then redo. anyway today was fun! had chinese lesson in the morning. pleasant surprises cos
1) i thought it's from 8-11 but its actually till 10 only! :D
2) lao shi gave us chocolates!! mmmmm
well the chocolates right were really nice. they're filled with rum and a whole cherry and some thick white sugary thing which tastes like marzipan. anyway teacher passed them around but alot of people didnt want! such waste! so i ate 3 :D lolololol!! it's so me to eat so many. i think huajia knows. during chinese i always eat ALOT. hahahaha. this girl from another class passed me another box i swear i was tempted to polish all off BUT got self control!! so yummy mmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after chinese went to parkway with clara and huajia for lunch. was rather nice cos its good to get away from school and talk outside of school about school. i know that sentence sounds weird but it makes perfect sense to me. haha. if you know me you'd know what i'm saying. had fun talking to them. then huajia left cos of something urgent. then i left with clara. but she went back to school while i went home. after going back home to do some stuff i went back to school again (yes thank God i live in the East) for projectwork. was fine. we have so much to do but i will just chill. we've come so far. it's just the oral presentation left. just. chill. no worries. after projectwork Mr Tan was so nice as to suggest going to mac! so we went to the Siglap one. he treated as usual, but we didnt eat much. only angie ate a burger. i couldnt stomach a burger man! then i left with zihui. :) it was a day well spent i must say. class outing on 6th nov i hope :)

alright to back to whatever i've blogged yesterday. i was saying i had dinner with ming and his mom cos i went to her salon to do braids for my dance. she's such a nice person. we went to eunos after all our hair were done and then she called for lots of veggies and chicken in all forms. haha and she even asked if everything was enough. and then she paid for drinks. and then she gave me pink haircare stuff which i later dropped on the toilet floor ARGH! nvm. i forgive myself. lol. then she left and we continued eating. luckily ming kept giving me food cos i really was too paiseh. i was having butterflies in my stomach before meeting his mom la. and it didnt help that he was laughing, thinking it is very funny. i had a good time though.

then dance. haha. sunday was the comp. lots of the participants turned up with choreographers and instructors and all. so we seemed weaker. but now thinking back i think we did fine. given the time constraints and all, we really aren't that bad. but there was one part when we all had mental block. hahaha. but it was a great experience and its nice shaking hands with the other dancers and making new friends out of this entire process. and keeping fit! oh goodness thats the best part. i love dance. i'm always game to compete and play and learn.

my dad came back from China (finally!) and bought me a pillow!!! :D i know its JUST a pillow but he seldom buys things for me, he just gives me money. plus its so huggable i tore open the plastic when i pinched it under the plastic. hahaha! and then i went to my dad's bedroom and pushed the pillow through the gap at the door and wriggled it. and he saw and asked "mei is it you!" and i quickly ran away. the childish things we do when we're happy. or maybe its just me.

OKAY AND NOW FOR THE THING MATTHEW GOT ME TO DO:

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.

Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.

Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.

Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!

Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. my grandfather thought i'd be a boy so he tried to wait a little longer but left this world when my mom told him i'm a girl.

2. when i was young my dad treated me like a boy.

3. i used to have constant nightmares and sleepwalk sometimes when i was in primary school.

4. i LOVE pigs' trotters!

5. i've had my first kiss.

6. i LOVE playing english chess!

7. i LOVE pepper and vinegar in my food!

8. i have a small tattoo on my hip.

9. i own less than 7 pairs of shoes.

10. i've tried smoking and quit after a month.

11. i used to adore Westlife.

12. i LOVE Britney Spears!

13. i cry ALOT at the movies.

14. currently 3 people are admiring me secretly.

15. i've had some (but very little) plastic surgery done on my eyes and nose to make myself prettier.

16. i talk to my tortoise and carry it like a baby.

17. i am the only one in my family who looks after my tortoise.

18. the first time i ever ate laksa was this year.

19. i haven't washed my hair on a daily basis since secondary 1.

20. i walk around my house naked if nobody's home.

GO FIGURE! WOULD LIKE TO HEAR WHAT U GUYS HAVE TO SAY! CHOOSE 5 WRONG STATEMENTS. LOVE ALL.

1) HAHA it feels great to talk to pohtiong once again after such a long time!! he's damn cute as usual.

2) matthew wants to watch us dance. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?! because i CANT!! :O

3) Mr Tan wants to watch us dance. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!! because i can. he must be a closet ji go pek!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

4) i love dance but nothing makes me more irritated than not being able to perfect the steps. tmr's full dress rehearsal. i still dont think my stomach's flat enough :( i wont be too greedy just a liiiiitle bit more toned.

5) went to zixuan's blog to see if he replied to my tag and he did, but his blog is damn off-centre i cant read what he typed. maybe he'll see this, cos i'm too lazy to tell him!

6) 10 mins ago i was talking to 3 people. 10 mins later all are GONE. mysteriously!

7) friendster so irritating. cant see my new testimonials. (but this is not a biggie!) but i dont often receive testimonials (and i wonder which stalkers keep visiting cos the numbers are always there but i dont get no testimonial) so i'm always so excited by new ones! lol!

8) went to the doc today (finally) after thinking through everything and realising i dont bloody want to miss my dance comp just cos of my dumb fever. was fine, just a normal throat infection and fever. grabbed some other pills on the way. i am such a sick girl!

9) i dont know why i am not tired! tmr is my first chinese lesson after so long of being sick. heard from Clara that the teacher wont give worksheets to those who aren't present. but i dont have an MC for yesterday cos i didnt go to the doc yesterday, and yesterday i swear i was so damn sick i cried. but after that it got much better. then this morning didnt feel too well again so didnt go. the fever just keeps coming and going. and my menstruation came. double blow. damn sick of life. if the teacher scolds me for not giving an MC then too bad i really just have to tell her i'm not lying.

10) got assigned to another council task for this saturday's university talk. and its the same old Speech Person Usher duty. RAWR!! in other words, its ushering the Speech Giver onstage and offstage when the person has to go onstage or offstage lor. cant they give me better stuff like ushering the normal people into the hall or maybe the parents? they always make me go up to stage and be those flower vases. damn tired of these typecasts. fourth time already. am i not useful enough?? and i didnt go for the briefing yesterday cos i was really sick, so i am so uncertain of what to do. if the person goes onstage, do i stay there? university talks are so boring afterall. and long. eurgh.

11) dont be too nice to me. i will take advantage!

12) thank God for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really.

13) my uncle's back from Thailand!

14) just talked to my grandmomma on the phone.

15) hehehehehe nothing else except i miss my dad! he's coming home tmr!! ba ba hui lai lo!

okay to the tagboard:

Clara: what's BS?? today we've got telepathy.. the smses!!
huijie: you blur queen you!! socialise more pls. ("v")

loves all!!! MUAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

1.When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
i hate Mr Pimple.

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
but i never even had it before!! on my wedding night i hope. heeeeeeeeehooooo

3.What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
MORE!

4. Favorite planet?
i dont know.. jupiter sounds really inviting

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
my list just got cleared.

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
just sent the phone to repair so i dont have ringtones. but the one i really loved till death previously was the Glasgow Love Theme by Craig Armstrong.

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
damn embarrassing. not telling

8. Describe yourself in one phrase.
can never let go of memories?

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
not wearing one now. not in the house

10. Bright or Dark Room?
bright

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
damn hot

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
the one nearest to the window or wall, either one which the bed is closer to, cos i love leaning against something at the side. security reasons i guess

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
talking online to some ...

14. What did the last text message that you received on your mobile say?
HAHA not saying.

15. Where is your letter box?
at my house gate

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
RAH

17. Last furry thing you touched?
some puppy i think. those whom owners take for walks and i just happen to walk past.

18. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
why would i do that!!

19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
NONE!

20. Favorite age you have been so far?
hmmmm this is tough. i would say this year.

21. Your worst enemy?
actually, myself.

22. What is your current desktop picture?
something of a pathway filled with trees and autumn leaves.

23. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"really meh"

24. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
this is SO TOUGH!!!!!!! ah. hmmm to be able to fly permanently then i'd choose the flying one. if not i'd take the money!!

25. Do you like someone?
no

26. The last song you listened to?
wu ding (stop saying i am cheena i just really know how to appreciate good songs when they come along regardless of language k. right Clara?)

27.If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
OH NO, the thought of it makes me dead scared. but then if my sis dies i'd be kinda (okay maybe really) sad. but i'm afraid of dying and the pain! (see at least i'm not a liar who says i'll jump in front of the bullet without hesitation!) but if i dont do so i'd probably cry myself blind afterwards.

28. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
hahahahahahaahhahahahaha. not gonna say here.

29. What is the closest object to your left foot?
the electric plug.

okay thats the end of the absolutely boring survey, but i had no choice cos i have nothing to blog about! visited my grandmom just now. really took my mind of all the shitty stuff in life. this time i'm convinced this world is totally fucked (ABSOLUTELY), people judge you without watching what they say. stop acting like you all know me, cos you ALL dont and how often do we even meet each year who are you to judge me like that? RAWR my throat hurts and my entire body too i'm convinced to warm up AND warm down after dance. siao it fucking hurts! anyone knows where to get braids?

the old man said we'd never get out of this tangle.

Tipsy - J. Kwon

love this song! can just pop pop pop to it non stop! waiting for dance later.. meanwhile i have not practised my ass vibration HAHA damn lazy oh i am so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy noooooooo...

ANYWAY! yesterday went shopping hee hee with my family. freaking fun. i had alot of fun man. my parents were so nice yesterday (especially so). haha! my results are AADDEE so freaking pissifying, i dont think i REALLY met my expectations after all the adding up of mid year grades and all. but nvm thankful i have no S and U! this is the stepping stone to my A Levels. i know i can do this. right now just hang loose :D ok so anyway yeah i bought so many things! but havent finish monday going to shop again at town muaha! marks&spencers have got such cute girl boxers i feel like buying the whole shop!! i am going back to buy somemore, i promise! bought white pants and a belt which came with it (quite awful i can give it away actually), a woollen sweater and boxers AND, A WHOLE LOT OF FOOD. thats all. and my mom went to buy the whole Clarins cleansing set cos she says i need it (thanks lots) but i really dont think its gonna help much. i feel so sad. really :(

ate at Chatterbox Meritus Mandarin, had like a whole lot of starters, soyabean+honeydew+honey+banana blend, and the huge nasi lemak which had prawns (damn fresh), chicken wing, fish, eggs, peanuts+ikan billis, otak! omg felt so damn fat afterwards but dont know why today i woke up my stomach is quite flat. hee hee hoo hoo! later going to dance! then meeting my family at the airport cos my daddy's flying so we're having dinner there. his flight is at 1am. i think we're having fish&co yay i looooove the calamari and prawn+pasta salad!!! yum i guess its ok to eat alot as long as the next day my stomach just miraculously disappears right? lol! i am just such a lazy bum RAH! nvm eat first think/work out later. at the most dance for like 4 hours again lor haha.

i hope my hair can grow faster so i can curl it. kinda bored of my straight hair now. and the fringe which NEVER seems to grow. oh well. its good that mason's back safe and sound AND pestering me to call for class outing. pw yesterday was fine, i didnt lose my temper whatsoever, kokjun was great (his slides and attitude.. whoa), angie was pretty serious and that is good, zihui was late (!!) but still serious la, brenda i think she is so much more... approachable and serious now. thank God for making things work, i was really pleased with yesterday's meeting. i hope we fare great. :)

to the tagboard!
cheryl: i'm damn free now except for dance+chinese+pw haha. can la can meet up this weeeeeeek. love!
clara: ;) i damn nice right!

another year older, a little bit stronger..

long time no see!!

i am selling my dress at $20. any takers? i dont quite want it anymore. only worn thrice!

hello dearest cupcakeblog its been a long time since we met!

i want to buy metro bras! they're damn pretty HOOHOO!! i dont specifically mean metro, but triumph bras and pierre cardin gosh they have the prettiest things ever but must ask my mom go with me cos she'll pay then i wont have to waste my money on them. :D got soooooo many goodness!! i want to buy everything nice. plus they had quite nice g-strings and thongs and all that fancy lacy stuff. i quite liked one which had jewels on them, though a lil trashy (ok perhaps mad trashy for most here) but its pretty to look at if u wear it. anyway, had dance today!! just reached home. so fun. :D

anyway i just showed my mom and sis some of my dance moves and they said it looks very vulgar (just like my classmates say)! but if its not vulgar its boring and..... just boring!! but anyway they just dont have that kind of acceptable mindset cos the dancers weren't making a fuss out of it. anyway it was fun la! accomplished quite a lot, have each got 4 counts of 8 to choreograph by sunday! then its another practice, followed by next thur and next fri. sunday's the comp HOHO i am mad excited!! but its nerve wrecking at the same time. and now i really REALLY have to watch my diet and do stomach crunches (not that its gonna help at this point of time) cos i want to look my best in the midriff baring outfit. still hovering over the decision of pants or skirt, but i think some skirts will really flatter those moves, except the part where i have to slide under alia's legs HAHA hmmm its really funny i still laugh when i think of sliding under her legs but it makes a good move. and i love the one move which always gets me. whoever dances it well i always think that dancer is freaking sexy. but dont know how to describe also. i need to practise the butt vibrating thing EURGH but i realised the trick is to bend really low but after i climb up i'm usually too unstable to do so. ah well it all seems weird here but its really nice all right. the other girls are great too. :) after dancing went to do a lil bit (really a lil only) of gym, tried to tone my thighs and arms but didnt have the discipline too. after that went to have dinner with jiahui then went home!! after shopping at NTUC (my favourite!) heeeee hui jia lo!

well the day before i came home from school and immediately went to run on the treadmill cos i wanted to tone my thighs BUT i failed cos i gave up when i was bored running alone and went to dance. i lack the discipline to become a sports person seriously and if i ever was i'd shame all of them. anyway! i feel like running now i think when i have the time i ought to use my treadmill more cos i need firm thighs EURGH!! i really really do i hate my thighs RAH! tmr going to school for my DEAREST pw group's OP! hope we'll do fine. i hope nobody expects me to memorise everything cos, well, i just got home and am tired from dancing and want to sleep :( will do fine tmr la i guess, my part needs little memorising. after pw im going home to bathe then going out with my family!! been such a long while since i went out with them.. daddy's flying off to Shanghai this sunday. :( + :) haha cos i will miss him but cos i get more freedom and can sleep with my mom in the same room. ah well! anyway yes shopping tmr hoho i will squeeze my parents dry! then sunday dance.. then monday my mom's bringing me out to shop cos she says its been a long while! will squeeze her dry too i even told her "we go into the shop and buy what i want u just pay can already ok?" haha but since she intends to bring me shopping it should mean that right. if i see that pair of Adidas shoes it is fate that i should buy them!

need to also look out for a dance skirt and.. stuff. lazy to list down. anyway there's this huge pimple on my cheek which never seems to go away feel like killing someone. oh i just sent my phone for repair cos the screen wont show and guess what that guy huh, the next day i went to collect it he said i need to get like some Singtel stamp like wth? the day before i went to send it to repair the girl didnt say anything. how frustrating. i was freaking pissed cos i had alot of difficulty using my mom's and sis' phones and i desperately needed ALL my contacts but all those in my sim card were the ones from damn long ago like secondary school. hell you dont know how important new contacts are in jc. and so i was pissed and i scolded that guy and he gave in and i got my phone back. another service person said in a nice tone, "dont be pissed. i had a worse day than u, trust me." my heart went out to her and i immediately regretted it. i mean i'm just a student and i'm so selfish (BUT that guy was damn pissy RAH) and sometimes the things i say really hurt people, especially the people i always am with, my classmates/family etc. i'm getting real pissy to be around with so please please forgive me. its hard to cos i always apologize but i never change cos my temperament is like so bad nowadays i always lose it before i remember to hold back. i'm really sorry ESP my pw groupmates. only one person from my group reads this though. you see now i'm saying sorry; tmr i'll go get pissy about things again wanna bet? i'm such a...... bitch. i really am RAH!!!

i miss Mrs Chan. today's farewell assembly was kinda sad though everyone seemed happy. steph was the emcee and she did a terrific job though some parts were kinda funny. love her voice and her pronunciation, dont know why. today also presented Mrs Chan with my drawing on behalf of the class. damn paiseh it was just plain A4 size paper which i didnt have the chance to pass to any student councillor so i just kept it with me. and she was like joking about Mr Tan having like fans. thats mad absurd cos i NEVER heard of it- Mr Tan IS NOT someone people would want to idolise so yeah. but Mrs Chan is so nice la i really will miss her. today she also gave us a full day off from lessons. the last full day im sure :(

received all my results already!! thankfully i passed my GP! :D got back the first part of my elit paper (Great Expectations) today and i was really quite happy. it was the highest i ever got forany elit test/assignment/shit. haha. jeffery lim marked it. love him haha. then came unseen, which was marked by Mrs Christine Ang, then it wasnt as good but still i was happy. she was so freaking sarcastic she said "u have some insightful ideas (about time)" if u dont notice where the sarcasm lies, i think you are blind. thats a pretty encouraging thing to tell me. with all the shitty scares about promos results now... RAH. but still she's a good elit teacher can i cannot deny that, plus she's quite nice if u talk about personal things like family3 haha. so.. oh well! then got my last bit, (The Great Gatsby) and that bloody shit piece of work pulled my C to a D RAH feel like killing someone. Mr Ng marked that. but he's nice i guess so.. wont say a word. shush. okay! thats all to update i guess. love all. oh and econs i passed overall THANK GOD! i didnt pass my midyears and at the rate my classmates (more than half- its crazy) have to sit for the re-test... i really have to thank like someone for looking over me. i mean its mad absurd that so many people cant pass econs! it cant be SO bad right?! sighs. to all my classmates retaking any paper at all i really hope u guys do well and nobody retains. 06a15 :)

chinese AO levels coming but i dont have the mind to study. i'm bored of life! only have dance to look forward to. then when its over, its over. :( i have to rent dvds and while my life away. love all.

steph on the tagboard: thats fantastic news. really.

thank you God (no seriously) /EDITED

EDITED! haha i think this pic is very funny.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH euphoria THIS IS EUPHORIA AT ITS VERY BEST! WRITTEN REPORT DUE TMR, THE FINAL FINAL LAST-MINUTE MADNESS TONIGHT! to projectfuckingwork: so long farewell i need to say goodbye! :D

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy but the thing is, now i cant bloody save my written report RAWR. my dad AH he always has to spoil things RAWR long story i have to wait for him to come home before i can scold him for changing the computer settings RAWR! (i sound like a crazed sex kitten saying RAWR but i am really angry RAWR). and while waiting for my dad to come home i must blog to spend time. not gonna study for tmr's chinese test i'm in no mood to and there's like 5-worksheet assignments to complete sorry hor no time lao shi HAHA i feel so guilty aiyah! shouldnt la i bet clara and steph aint gonna do it so relaxxxxxxxing lijia!

today got back 2 results. chinese (cant believe it still hahahahahaha) i got A, and maths as well. well i really cant bloody believe it someone kick me or something. and for chinese i really cant believe i topped the class i got 27/30 for zuo wen?!?!?!?! i really dont think i deserve such a good grade. seriously. i am not lying. i dont deserve this. my lao shi also hinted that the teacher was very lenient and its kinda based on luck (haha! humph!). she gave me a present which said "lijia, jiayou!" (writing paper AGAIN LOL!) freaking funny. when i received it i was like "thank God!" before i thanked her. kinda rude now thinking back but never in my wildest dreams i thought i'd get this A. maths, on the other hand was another unbelievable thing. well maybe not really cos i've practised till i knew i could score to pass but.. wow. thank you God, my family, my friends and my tuition teacher! and my passion has been reignited again.. those good ol' Amaths A1 days! this has really given me hope. i dont know who to thank for everything. :)

but on the downside, i did not pass my GP essay. haha. i was so disappointed i thought i could cry. thank God jiahui was beside me and she said stuff which really made sense to me. like my methods are all wrong. i was so bitter at the teacher for giving me such a shitty grade and just like my chinese, never in my wildest dreams i ever thought i'd fail GP so bad. if it were chinese then yeah maybe but GP?! isn't GP english? someone tell me. i topped my sec4 class in english and got A1 for O Level so how can this happen??!?! english has always been like my pride and joy during the sec4 days and i hate to say that i'm really utterly remarkably extremely fucking sad about this. i'm sorry for unleashing that emo in me now but (i am not lying about this, and i do not want your sympathy.), this means alot to me. and jiahui and i played hang man during GP and i was freaking upset i set my theme as "emotion" and it was
_ _ _ _ _ _ _, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

fucking disappointed.

i really was at that moment. okay sorry for subjecting my readers (i know u guys read so thanks) to such emo-blogging, i really just had to say everything. or i'd end up killing everyone, over something as fucked up as my GP grades. if i cannot promote cos of my GP, i am going straight to poly. thank God Mr Teo called me back to express interest in going through my script. it shows (hopefully?) that he believes in me? i dont know but i really was pretty touched cos he approached me to want to do this for me. sighs.. so bloody thankful you have no idea.

yeah anyway today after chinese had tsd workshop for all but 10min haha. Mr Lofthouse is recuperating from his operation i guess and Mr Young should be busy marking exam scripts/attending lessons. anyway its a good thing cos i had (or rather we ALL had) pw to rush. we did silly warm ups and some started dancing haha.! i left to meet ihui, we went to my place to slog. its crazy but at least i know our work isn't (shouldn't be?) mad trashy like before. finished at my place around 630, left for bedok and went to bind everything. cost $8.30 wtf. my mom can do it for free. nvm no time, the shopowner was obviously cashing in on our desperation. nvm cheapo i can donate that money to her really. ---------went to have dinner without informing my mom oops! was really quite good the food but i cant finish it as usual. and oh i didnt know that milk tea was teh peng in coffee shops so i saw this woman drinking it and it looked damn nice so when the guy came i was like "uncle i want nai cha" HAHA and he was like "HUH?! what nai cha" thankfully there was zihui beside me to say its teh peng. i think coffeeshops ought to upgrade and call those nai cha cos it just sounds better. i've never drank something so ridiculously named as teh peng and today, is my first time hoo hoo!

reached home around 8+, watched so you think you can dance2, sighs so sad to see people cry when they cant make it. i think if such stuff happens to me i'd cry too, on national tv and bawl like a baby. but they dance so fabulously i'd never make it there. but they really shouldnt be upset cos they're so darn good!! i mean dont compare them with the people who got in. they're good enough to be featured so they really shouldn't be upset. okay i know people console them by saying "u're so good dont be sad" and this is probably the two hundred millionth time they've heard this but. its true. but it doesnt help hearing such nondescript comments la. but really la. argh dont know what im saying i'm getting sleepy hee night night!
oh tagboard replies hmmmm.

clara: your time will come girl. just strive towards better grades and they will come. :) anyway our combi's different so u cant compare like that. cheer up, we have the A's to conquer still alright. i wont do well for tsd, elit and econs. i know it. anyway hello just heard from zihui you did well for geog!!!


zihui: aww me too la me too!!! :) MUAZ!!

huijie: i miss you too three four. and pau.

love all! i am ever so grateful for everyone and everything. tmr's doomsday though. i dont want my econs/tsd/elit papers back.

aww

me 16th birthday.
cartellll
caught in the act by angela babe


hi! today was vjc open house. i wont blog much cos i'm rushing WR (yeah kiss my ass) so..... the best thing i did today was the flying fox! save for the fact that dennis saw kept making fun of me and saying stuff like "oh the bolt's not tight" and "i will use the rusty chain when your turn comes". haha, scared the shit out of me i never knew i was so brave cos first u have to climb this really tall and long ladder oh gosh i was so afraid! never knew i had to climb to get there; i suspect i have no common sense at all cos i never ever wondered how the hell people got to the rope, i only enjoyed watching people slide down haha and thought it'd be so fun! so today i got the shock of my life and was rEALLY nervous about leaping off from the height oh goodness me still cant believe i did it!! Mr Seet was really mean too, he kept taunting jiahui and i (not like jiahui's scared she's helluva brave girl) and especially making fun of my lack of knowledge about such stuff. i was shocked when he said the person might just fall from the rope i was like "huh?!?!?! can we not do this hahahahahahahhaha but of cos i did it!! hoohoo felt really nice swinging in mid air and it was such a cheap thrill! the ODAC people were so nice too especially zihui's friend aww she kept asking me if it was fun while she undid my that thing. that do u call it?

keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
HEY
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
for rockcliminbing all those stuff
zihui *303KB* says:
is der any difference between convience , elderly friendly or usefulness
zihui *303KB* says:
n praticality?
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
the thing u wrap arnd ur crotch whats it called?
zihui *303KB* says:
harness
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
usefulness=practicality
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
convenience is a subset of elderly friendly.
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
YEAH THX!
zihui *303KB* says:
lol

YES, that was exactly what i wanted to call it; a harness! she undid my harness and was so nice la walao! the entire experience was great la. after that dennis saw saw me in the canteen and he was like "did u love the flying fox?" and i gave him a really weak smile and he said the dumbest thing ever: "i know you love me la" haha i think he is dizzy from being situated at such great heights for too long.! btw I REALLY really admire those people who arent afraid of heights especially the ODAC people. oh BRAVO!! :D

today i screwed up my mono as expected cos i wasnt feeling it, too nervous! but its okay its already over heheheheheh well but i still have to say sorry to the tsd people: my mono may have shown the sec4s the very unprofessional side to the subject and i am extremely sorry for it. i just wasnt feeling it and rushed through like mad. sorry.

to clara and matt on the tagboard: thank you loveya!

i just want to say, its great knowing that people care :) zihui thanks so much for being in my group. clara you MUST press on!! :) love my dearest girls as well + babe + ahming.

TODAY BLOGGER IS SURPRISINGLY NICE TO ME

yay.. dont we all love pictures. this was a few days ago. aww i love ya'll. anyway all pictures can click to enlarge and when u click them they're really pretty big!

haha this was during marcus' 21st and i was really full and looking at the food when someone took my picture. looks evil and inhuman.

hehehe.. class outing and fooling around with jiahui.

see the strands that keep falling out and poking my eyes EURGH this is my haw par girl.

this is my class! i know its damn small though sorry haha i'm 4th from the right. i quite like this pic.

well yesterday was really funny. alia, shairah and fatin were online with me and we signed up for this Chingay hiphop competition and were really mixed up about the rules and regulations and just practically everything. today's the deadline HOHO but i'm sure we submitted the application. so exciting. i really cant wait!! dancing hoohoo! dancing gives people the kind of high you can never achieve just by acting or other kinds of performing arts.. or probably its just me cos clara and bee think that i look very vulgar when i dance HAHA. i dont know why la. anyway i think our group name's really funny though. nvm, we shall see!! winners get to perform at next year's Chingay!

came online to meet zihui and the dancers for meetings but zihui i suspect, has dozed off behind her screen and the dancers arent here yet. i really really hate pw, which i really have to REDO after this. and then i havent really prepared for my acting tmr oh gosh i'm really dead. today when matthew/muthu/jason asked me to show them i almost died worried cos it dawned upon me that open house, is, tmr. TONIGHT. i really must start or i'll never get through tmr. cant get into bloody character rah. its weird how promos are over yet i still feel stressed.

anyway i think i ought to talk about my day. today i went to school lor. for farewell assemly. actually i never did think much about farewell assembly till yesterday when i was in school doing pw and i saw kai and saiful. and they were really friendly and all.. especially saiful HAHA he was damn funny when he smiled and waved lol! these are the seniors i've spent the most time with in vjc but they're going and i dont feel a thing? actually maybe i do, but the sadness hasnt surfaced yet. or maybe im really too busy to have such feelings. either way i guess. how sad. then after farewell assembly we had this security seminar OMG total waste of time you know what i did in the performance theatre? i actually counted the number of eye candy i have in vjc. hahahaha! well and i've come to a grand total of 3. BUT voila voila voila ALL ARE ATTACHED. see the rate these people are being snapped up, so frustrating! rah! the good guys are all taken. but its okay. eye candy shall only remain as eye candy. and i'm really darn glad i've got 3 to look at in school everyday cos if not its gonna get so boring. oh anyway i started this eye candy thing today when the security seminar guy said "vjc has the most goodlooking people" and everyone was laughing at how untrue it is so i decided to see for myself.

i've got nothing to blog about. except oh today i found out Mrs Chan vjc's principal is leaving. i really like her. sighs. she's so nice la! and we had free icecream :)

just like a star across my sky...

like a star by corinne bailey rae

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Only to love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is a fake
Without a doubt you're by my side
Heaven has been way too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh your love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind, yeah
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

I have come to understand the way it is
Its not a secret anymore
Cos we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Oooh oooh
I wonder why it is I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is
I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

i really love this song.. everyone's got to listen to it. it's so lovely.
ooh you do it all the time.. blowing out my mind..

:(

da jia hao. just came back from school. its only 9am though. well it was just zihui, Mr Tan and me. projectwork. how grosssssssssssssssssssssss i feel extremely demoralised (oh i really do!!) and zihui always tells me to chill but i cant. oh i feel sooooo badddddddddddddddddddd i really do. i feel extremely lousy now. our projectwork is going to hit a D, at best a C and its all my fault.

sighs RAHRAHRAH i feel like sleeping. very tired, dont know why. but i have to complete the WR edition before i ever feel at ease. then probably return back to school later for council open house stuff (though im really in no mood to). i just want to complete the WR then go to bed. until samuel calls and says they need help. then maybe i might drag myself out of the house. maybe.

and my hair's kinda kinky today cos i slept last night without waiting for it to dry. it always happens when i sleep too early, and i hate my hair like that! today's impossibly wrong. my entire day. eurgh.

yesterday i went to school at 10 i think. supposed to talk to Mr Tan about WR, then he said we ought to do the most final thing and hand it in. so zihui came to my house and we did it and then took a cab back to school to hand it in. but so what? it still isnt up to standard today. FFFFFFFFF. and today my dad drove so recklessly in the morning i swore i almost felt like running out of the car. its so dangerous and he keeps thinking that it isnt and that time is everything. time is definitely NOT everything when u lose your life okay?! ........RAHBLAHFFFF they didnt have my top in blue like i wanted at parkway yesterday (so sad!!) but zihui says its too expensive anyway. so i went to meet ahming and zihui went her way too.

well i was an hour late when i met ahming but that boy's so nice he wasnt like angry he just gave me dulan face for 5secs then he carried my heavy bag for me and even refused to let me take over when he said it made him look horrible hahaha. we then went to this really hot (as in warm) place to have lunch, and he kept giving me the beef which he said i really should try but it was soso only really. i thought my beef balls were nicer. i finally told him why i quarrelled with my mom and sis, and he said he pities my mom. he doesnt get the full picture i think. then we went to the library where he didnt really research on anything much, and left. lots of excitement on the way back (him, not me) but i understand cos if it were me i'd be excited too. he then went to meet kt, but i didnt want to cos i thought i should spend some time at home. i've been home so late these days. it now feels like my house is just a roof over my head, nothing more. and i dont want this to be a habit. ahming thinks i am stupid. but i am not.

oh did i blog about the outing with my dearest girls? i think i didnt. that night dont know who said want to come online then never send us the pictures LOR!! hahaha well it was fun la but i kept stoning really, dont know why either. i just zoned out whenever i sat down. went to orchard, watched little miss sunshine due to the recommendation by my uncle and the reviews but hmmm i felt it was too shallow. correct me if im wrong but i really felt that it wasan unbelievable plot. the themes were fine i felt, sometimes touching yes but then overall i didnt really like it that much. but its a different kind of film which does provoke your thoughts. for the pictures just go to cheryl's blog haha im too lazy to get the pics from her to update.

i dont feel like going on anymore but i just want to say i love my friends. <3 blogger just wont load my pictures eurgh

today's pictures

damn i really hope the pictures can load, but i really doubt so. so meanwhile i realised i forgot to reply to the tags, and i will do it now:

angela: we both look like crap in the photo. really. i hate it too, no kidding. i really miss ya babe. hope u'll be well soon enough, and i just realised this saturday we cant meet cos its vj's open house :( take care please.

huijie: u know i loveya too.

clara: HAHA, you know why and i know why! had quite a fun time (though am really tired) today. we're one step closer to getting the class bonded, fellow ct rep! :)

well blogger's really unwilling to load my photos. another time peeps. toodles.

and i will try to fix you

hi everyone. i'm so tired but my hair's not dry so i'll just blog till its dry so i can go to bed. smells so good. i love it. i mean my hair.

so so so, today was class outing. went pretty fine, i'm really tired so wont be upbeat about the whole event. jason went MIA, feel like murdering him. angie said she tried to contact him but he wasnt contactable. i seriously hate it when people dont reply to my smses. THINK MY SMSES AND TIME FREE IS IT?!?! SERIOUSLY. and if i dont reply, it really is cos i'm too close to u or that i read the message very late after it being sent. not saying jason only. generally to everyone. really, nothing pisses me off more than that. try it when i'm on a pissy mood and see what u'll get.

i think i'm tired so i'm getting irritable. a sleepy girl is an angry girl. haha. still remember how rimmel knows i always get sleepy around 10+ and on holidays all activities after 10+ i'll join so reluctantly. unless its swimming. i really love swimming. i'd die if there wasn't such a thing in this world as a swimming pool. i think i should swim tmr. before meeting the girls.. but maybe i'll have to return to school for projectbloodywork, it all depends on Mr Tan. he says he'll sms me tmr. sian its like waiting so indefinitely. i mean tmr he says go means i go?! so.... irritating. then all my plans are going to turn upside down. anyway council doesnt need me for open house anymore. the president said i'd be important but i insisted on putting tsd first so now there's nothing anymore. i feel relieved but upset. got this feeling i let go another one of those big stuff u can impress people with, like emcee-ing or some other stuff (cos they always typecast me as such..) yeah too tired to explain.

anyway i dont have that job anymore so, ah well. yesterday went out with ming and kt. was quite alright, quite fun sometimes. only that i cant understand cantonese, and i dont see whats up with so much vulgarities. but it was quite funny at times, i laughed to myself when things were dumb, but they didnt know. oh i saw this really gorgeous pair of adidas shoes. which i really liked the minute i lay my eyes on them. and the boys tried to psycho me into trying and subsequently, buying. but its just not me to spend so much on a pair of shoes. i have better ways to spend my money like saving it up to feed my pet bunny when my uncle buys it for me. its just like saving up to support a child. plus if i buy that pair of shoes (which are really hard at the edges so i doubt they'd be comfy) i'd have to walk fashionably BUT painfully. so there's really no point. i told jiahui about it, and she agreed it wont be comfy. well if she said it was gorgeous too i might consider getting it but girls know girls best. went to tangs afterwards to look for stuff but there are NOTHING to be bought, watched miami vice and got caught by my cousin who gave me this knowing look, ate meesiam (me only though) and later beef noodles and then reached home totally full and tired. ming said his food was really good and kept repeating its name at the mrt station. i thought it was really cute. haha. then he sent me home and at the mrt station there were lots of army boys. i dont know what i said that for. probably am too tired.

so fast forward to today, met jiahui early at 1115 then made our way to the supposed "asian civilisation museum" to check out the japanese exhibition but it kinda moved and we got really mad. so we forgot all about the museum and shopped around raffles, which was utterly boring. i suspect we only have fun shopping at night cos we're more high then. and then there's the crowd and all. i dont know what i'm saying i'm too tired haha. umm so we met up with classmates, went to watch you, me and dupree WHICH I THINK WAS NOT A WASTE OF MONEY NOR TIME SERIOUSLY, despite how predictable and idiot-proof the plot was, it still managed to retain my attention and i really liked it! i really did! i thought it was a great movie. i think i'm under a spell cos i usually turn my noses up to such films, like you know... those really dumb chick flicks. its the best chick flick i've caught i think. go watch it everyone. really. kate hudson's pretty! and i like matt dilon, quite hot though not thAT hot. hot = tom welling. he's REALLY REALLY the hottest of all. even johnny depp dont match haha now i am being extremely shallow here hmmm. i love his eyes and the intense stare though i agree that sometimes he overdoes it but when he does it it never fails to get me. heeeeee yeah after the movie (lets get back on track hmmm) we went to swensens, then moved to fish&co. which was much better. had dinner and zihui and i left, cos i thought i would be having council meeting tmr, but now i'm no longer needed. we took the same bus home and talked about projectbloodywork, the worst thing on earth. written report is due by next tuesday i cant bloody believe it.

came home tonight to find my uncle at my house gate. stopped to chat, havent seen him for kinda long! he came to deliver my sis' present cos her birthday is tmr. talked for like more than 5min before i said a very rash "bye" cos i was tired and i saw my mom and sis standing at the gate HAHA it was a funny sight really. he bought this gorgeous puma watch for my sis.. the one which caught my eye when i was reading a magazine.. i really like it, my uncle has good taste, just like me! really!! i'm so similar to him.. we're both tall and thick skinned and good looking (HAHA or so he always says he is and or so my parents always say so) and clever (THIS IS TRUE MAN) and spendthrifts (my family always says this is the most true). and the shirt which i chose for his birthday last year.. he said its his style. so where do our differences lie? anyway i really did get a gift for my sis cos my unclesaid i ought to. jiahui said i'm damn nice to my sis waha obviously so after what she's done to me i'm still like compassionate? and the gift wasnt cheap (not in my uncle's standards very obviously hmmm) but i know its something she'd like. cos she's the gross type. HAHA. no la. she then said a very embarrassing/awkward "thanks for your gift" to me. to which i giggled, but would never let my emotions show, so i hid my giggly face behind my newspapers. haha. i know its stupid. i cant help it. i mean sometimes u just feel like all those little quarrels/arguements are damn juvenile. i dont know.

some random thoughts:
i need to start researching on anything and everything.
i really need my hair to grow, especially my fringe cos even when i pin it up it keeps falling down and it irritates my eyes ALOT, i feel there's something perpetually stuck in my right eye EURGH
i love my friends.

i'm back on earth

huijie and i haha! that was like sec4.

cheryl and i in the AHS canteen! sec4 also i think.
now in jc1, zihui, bee and i in elit class hahaha.
cant believe this is me. angela's earring looks like magic. i looked sideways cos the man moved suddenly and i didnt want him to think we were idiots lol! my nose like non-existent.
rimmel and i! at marina mandarin dinner.

haha, some old photos i decided to post for fun. not very flattering some, lol.

haha clara on the tagboard: yes i get it. but i've just come to realise that the tsd people are always not around when Mr Tan wants to treat them/us! but its not like Mr Tan can afford to re-treat (not retreat lol) them again, u're right. yeah. sorry tsd people! Mr Tan isnt going to treat/subsidise this monday. we'll all just have to choose a place within budget :) is fish&co alright for all? tag please. must get this done so we can book.

ah well! so yesterday marked the end of my promos!! :D so so happy. but yet there's this feeling like i'm not going to do so well which is bringing my upbeat mood down. a little. and i still have to memorise my monologue by this saturday i think i can just die really i hate memorising things, i cant do it! and then there's still projectbloodywork GAH F. and then there's still a million and one chinese tests awaiting when school really starts on next next monday. WHAT THE HELL, WHERE HAS ALL MY TIME GONE! nevermind, at least there's still monday to thursday this week to really recharge and shop like mad but sigh, its so temporial. class outing on monday, meeting my dear girls on tuesday, wednesday and thursday left empty, during which i still think i ought to clear some projectbloodywork stuff, and then maybe meet up with jiahui and angela or zihui etc. so many people to meet, so little time! still got others i have not listed. ah.

anyway yesterday was really fun hahaha! chinese promos in the morning, my ex-crush sat beside me!! well, for a few minutes only. in the exam hall and he injured his foot while playing soccer. so we just like chatted a little then he had to move cos he had to sit with his class. well coincidentally today is his birthday and i'm supposed to be at city hall to celebrate it with some other friends but ah haha too lazy and tired. i'll just sms or something. then chinese ended, hoho, went home, bathed changed i even had time to take a quick nap! then met jiahui at orchard- far east to be exact cos she had dental. then we walked around for about like 15mins only cos it was really boring there. then we went on our hunt HOHO super fun! our hunt lasted till like the end of the day. actually not really. we stopped at 6 then went to city hall area to walk around. bought my leggings (finally!) and my MAC stuff goodness orgasssssssssmic! our feet were killing us cos our footwear were, well, killers to be exact. we almost died. thank God chenggui came to fetch us after everything! was quite late, so my family was already seated in the living room "celebrating" mooncake festival haha! kinda fun and i tell you oh no the haze is really REALLY, really, BAD!!!! i feel so sad for the environment. we're all gonna die someday at this rate we're bullying the environment! but thats okay. :) i mean the dying part, not the bullying environment part. life's so utterly boring sometimes, i wouldnt mind making an excursion into the other world. maybe i'd make nice friends there and maybe they have gorgeous leggings and thir own MAC! hoohoo. yesterday was fun mostly cos of our dumb jokes and all though. really crazy and funny.!

by the way saw ming royce and kt yesterday haha. didnt stop to talk cos, well, just didnt haha. yesterday was really weird though, cos there was this modelling agency people at orchard mrt as usual and they asked me if i was singaporean. why, of course i am! (dont be cheated by them they're like a scam and even the ugly people also kena cheated! its in the newspapers). then while walking towards centrepoint this woman who was just like any other person, she's just a commuter, like walking with the flow, not stationed at any place, plus she looked like she's in her 40s. she asked me so suddenly if i was local and asked me if i wanted to be a model. it was scary cos she was standing beside me for so long, then she asked me in a creepy way. then after i said no thanks, she walked REALLY fast away. this is a really weird world... and i'm very sure i look local. though i think my face has changed over the years.. i dont know why, but sometimes i look into the mirror and i never thought i looked like that. my face just keeps changing i feel. its weird. its so.. not me. i feel detached from my face and body sometimes. i dont know.!

well yeah.. that was how i spent my day. my feet are bleeding!! :( my daddy went to repair my shoes for me see, so now they're really loose and the rough edges will scratch against my skin when i walk. it feels uncomfy. but my dad went to repair it for me so nicely i ought to wear it more. its so clean now! the guy polished it for me. i want to curl curl curl my hair and i want my dumb dumb dumb fringe to faster FASTER grow out now NOW. haha hows that for a repetitive sentence! i really cant memorise my monologue laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and draw freckles on my face and act so ugly again! i'm just not into it i cant get into character by this saturday!!!!! sighs. my sis' birthday is coming but i just have no bloody plans to get her something haha. marcus' 21st birthday celebration later at night. cant wait.

i looove bellydancer! angela get well soon! EVERYONE RELAX, PROMOS ARE OVER let your hair down :D

so bored!

came online after studying some maths, which was torturous really. im not tired but i dont feel like studying. with some luck i might pass tmr. but i dont really care haha. lost all that passion i had for maths back then. how stifling, jc.

oh and our class dinner is confirm on monday. we'll meet in the afternoon, undecided timing yet. once again, each one come up with one venue to go k. okay not really in the mood to blog so i'll just reply to the tags, which i forgot to in my last entry. i'm not tired.

zihui: i dont mind u flooding my tagboard really, its better than nobody tagging HAHA! yeah the lit paper was horrigible at its most horrigible. like fuck it man??!?! i see people queueing to take your place already. dont regret :D

bryan: really? i'll call u or something tmr. KEEP IT FREE FOR ME PLS :)

huijie: yah those two pigs. haha! i love showing u my clothes cos i know the response from u is always positive lol! loveya all the way girl.

steph: u're really an english sua ku. lol did u know Ding Tai Fung has better xiao long baos?!?!?! crystal jade is LOUSY!

i know people might want to slap me if i say this but: i really want to curl my hair.

i am the cause,
i am a stockpile of chemical toys,
my body
is a deadly gadget,
i reach out on love,
my hands are guns,
my good intentions are completely lethal.

SCREAM

hey. feeling off now, dont know whats wrong! ah well. had two really grotesque papers today (haha). elit in the morning and tsd in the afternoon. felt totally brainwashed after, given the 3 hour paper and then a 2 hour break and then another (freaking daunting if u ask me) 3 hour paper. my brains are totally screwed, my heart feels tired, my legs and hands are lazy to move. i feel like i cannot move or love anymore. i hate exams. thank God the really tiring ones are over. left maths on thursday which means i have tmr off to study, plus chinese (dumb shit) on friday which i promised lao shi i would study hoho im sure i would i mean i really will kill myself if i find out i fail and have to attend chinese lessons during january and febuary next year when i have my tsd prelims and probably cheerleading (YAY).

just came back after gallavanting with jiahui at *GASP* tampines mall. been ages like almost a year since i visited that place and its so nostalgic now. like all the sec1,2,3 days we spent hanging around there, so lifeless. now want to hang around also no time. i dont know if its a good or bad thing cos too much of hanging around is detrimental too. its like, so ahlian! glad i've grown out of that but sad that time doesnt wait for me to really grow out of such things. it literally forces me to grow up and i hate that. i hate time. today brought 2 nissin tomyam seafood cupnoodles to school!! to eat with jiahui :D its our favourite but the bookshop has sadly run out of stock and has not replaced it for long so i thought i'd bring it and surprise her since my dad bought. after the elit exam we sat around the wooden benches with tim to eat and tim the poor boy was really stressed up about tsd absurd essay haha! he kept asking silly questions which i didnt know how to tell him were REALLY ABSURD (HAHA HE HIT THE NAIL ON ITS HEAD! the questions were based on absurd theatre!). ah well my sis is acting like a really fucked up bitch now! say hello all to the dumbest shit residing in my clean home.

oh yeah btw it was really fun hanging around tampines and we went home quite late after going for some *free stuff* hahahahaha uber cool we have arranged another date on thursday hoo hoo!! so fun. was really fun and all la. yesterday chenggui drove us in his car, how convenient too. and while i dont have a bf i'm still entitled to free rides haha. until university probably cos i dont see any potential vjc boys right now. kinda boring. marcus' 21st birthday this saturday!! i cant wait :D havent gotten any gift though. sighs. friday after school probably. if anyone's free cos most are occupied BOOHOO.

oh and A15, FRIDAY'S DINNER IS CANCELLED COS THE ART PEOPLE NEED PREPARATION TIME FOR THEIR EXAM ON MONDAY. yeah so we've changed it to monday (our marking day and the art students' paper day) so we can maybe even catch a movie or stuff if we're early. sounds better if you ask me. meanwhile each one come up with a place to dine at okay. anyway Mr Tan cant make it on friday means no treat. so monday's better. lol. much love all.

i'm bored of life
SO BORED OF LIFE