i put your picture away, sat down and cried today
haha the words in the title are from a song, although i really did cry today. it's picture by sheryl crow featuring kid rock and it is one of the songs that have the ability to take your breath away. so romantic. i love the words too. they make sense unlike some songs which catch your attention but you never seem to be able to grasp the meaning. ah anyway i really broke down in school today cos i REALLY really am one big mess now. i guess a huge part of that was due to groups which i spend most of my 24hours daily worrying about. anyway i felt really embarrassed for just crying cos its the freaking third time mr lofthouse has seen me in tears. even josef hasn't seen me cry before! thats terrible isnt it. and then he always doesnt know what to say to me and we kinda came to a group piece because they concentrated on my despair. haha. so now.......... i have no idea. tmr's saturday and i'm devoting it to groups. because i need to. prelims is in 2 weeks time. just thinking about it can add lines to my face i swear.
last night was one big sob affair cos we were the last group to leave school at like 945pm. i wanted to take a cab home cos it was damn late and i had econs to do. but i lent youk or rather kt $45 so i had only $2.50 in my wallet. and so i called home to tell my dad to prepare money so the driver wont have to wait. but then he sounded unwilling and that really pissed me off cos it was so damn late what did he expect me to do. WAIT FOR A BUS AND GET HOME IN AN HOURS' TIME? but anyway i just didnt bother about him and hung up. so then when i reached home my mom came out to pay for the cab. so problem solved. but i was feeling tired and pissy about how they didnt show any concern about anything at all. plus groups really wore me out after we came to nothing. so i just shut up and didnt answer their questions. after a short while of reading my econs i just broke down quietly.
and thank God my photoshoot was yesterday cos my eyes were really swollen today. everyone was like "omg what happened to your eyes". thanks for your concern all, i'm fine really cos i just woke up from a super long nap!
today floorball was da bomb! hahahahahaha i looooove playing floorball on friday mornings! its so exciting and funny. and mr seet is so nice and fun to be with! oh by the way i bumped into mr tang the other day. was so surprised and happy to see him! i miss him la. sometimes when you meet people who once meant so much to you in life (not mr tang but basically.. people.) , you just smile at them and chat a little and wonder why nice people can only come and go and not stay for good. but i guess thats life. anyway i really am crap at floorball and everytime the ball comes nearer and nearer i get damn nervous i will stick my tongue out and shake my head at mr seet and signal him not to pass to me but it always doesnt happen so i end up shooting but it goes sideways cos my aiming is like KNS can. hahahaha. i will scream whenever the ball comes and i swear i'll change my ways!! its so ugly
anyway i met youk (thats ming by the way) last evening to talk. cos i was feeling down. luckily he had no school and was bumming around the east which is just a few bustops from my house! so we went to the food centre near my house and ate and talked. felt so much better and i forgot i was sitting on bus 45 la i took it all the way to eunos without knowing haha cos was reading the devil wears prada as usual. then got down and changed a bus just in time to make it back to school at night.
my curls are really getting out of hand! :(
people aren't very trustoworthy afterall. they always let jealousy get involved with their friendships. is there really a need to spoil the friendship like that? THINK ABOUT IT.
zixuan is a face of the year too! i'm going to vote for him.
i have nothing else to say. i love my class (the nice people only though HAHA which is like 17 people out of 18 la so not that bad!) more and more. meeting bel on tuesday/thursday to buy a gift for our ex colleage cos we're not going for her birthday party. yay!! cant wait to meet my homie. loveya all people. take good care of yourselves cos chinese new year is coming woo! love it love it
last night was one big sob affair cos we were the last group to leave school at like 945pm. i wanted to take a cab home cos it was damn late and i had econs to do. but i lent youk or rather kt $45 so i had only $2.50 in my wallet. and so i called home to tell my dad to prepare money so the driver wont have to wait. but then he sounded unwilling and that really pissed me off cos it was so damn late what did he expect me to do. WAIT FOR A BUS AND GET HOME IN AN HOURS' TIME? but anyway i just didnt bother about him and hung up. so then when i reached home my mom came out to pay for the cab. so problem solved. but i was feeling tired and pissy about how they didnt show any concern about anything at all. plus groups really wore me out after we came to nothing. so i just shut up and didnt answer their questions. after a short while of reading my econs i just broke down quietly.
and thank God my photoshoot was yesterday cos my eyes were really swollen today. everyone was like "omg what happened to your eyes". thanks for your concern all, i'm fine really cos i just woke up from a super long nap!
today floorball was da bomb! hahahahahaha i looooove playing floorball on friday mornings! its so exciting and funny. and mr seet is so nice and fun to be with! oh by the way i bumped into mr tang the other day. was so surprised and happy to see him! i miss him la. sometimes when you meet people who once meant so much to you in life (not mr tang but basically.. people.) , you just smile at them and chat a little and wonder why nice people can only come and go and not stay for good. but i guess thats life. anyway i really am crap at floorball and everytime the ball comes nearer and nearer i get damn nervous i will stick my tongue out and shake my head at mr seet and signal him not to pass to me but it always doesnt happen so i end up shooting but it goes sideways cos my aiming is like KNS can. hahahaha. i will scream whenever the ball comes and i swear i'll change my ways!! its so ugly
anyway i met youk (thats ming by the way) last evening to talk. cos i was feeling down. luckily he had no school and was bumming around the east which is just a few bustops from my house! so we went to the food centre near my house and ate and talked. felt so much better and i forgot i was sitting on bus 45 la i took it all the way to eunos without knowing haha cos was reading the devil wears prada as usual. then got down and changed a bus just in time to make it back to school at night.
my curls are really getting out of hand! :(
people aren't very trustoworthy afterall. they always let jealousy get involved with their friendships. is there really a need to spoil the friendship like that? THINK ABOUT IT.
zixuan is a face of the year too! i'm going to vote for him.
i have nothing else to say. i love my class (the nice people only though HAHA which is like 17 people out of 18 la so not that bad!) more and more. meeting bel on tuesday/thursday to buy a gift for our ex colleage cos we're not going for her birthday party. yay!! cant wait to meet my homie. loveya all people. take good care of yourselves cos chinese new year is coming woo! love it love it
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