damn the whole world

From:
Edwin

Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("1/26/2007 9:13 AM","timetag1","SG");
Saturday, 27 January, 2007 1:13 AM

Subject:
buterauce

Message:
hows life been treating u? i am guessing tat life`s been gd to u since u r smiling...haha! and wat a nice smile it is too if i do say so myself :)Being a chef, i will have to say u look like a perfectly well done butter sauce as butter sauce breaks all so easily...BUT!...when u finally get it right... The feeling is orgasmic! haha.Am i going over board? :P well, sori... get emotional when it comes to this...not to say u r food butu look kinda yummy too...haha! dun worry i dun mean tat in a cannibalistic way...:PMy msn is shishio82@hotmail.com u? so anyways care to be friends? ;p ,sms me k? 92986129 edwin...maybe we can talk sumtime? :P

i received this utterly, remarkably puke-inducing message from this gross guy on friendster. yuck man damn disturbing. what "you look like a perfectly well done butter sauce"?!?!?!?!! i think these perverts should all go eat shit and die in the process of eating it.

anyway i feel damn frustrated and i am really REALLY trying my best to hold back on vulgarities. i wanted to begin this entry with a F because trust me i am damn pissed with my family but i shall practise self control. chinese new year is only weeks away. thank God! i cant wait for that. i seriously cant. the thought of the cheesy songs and cookies and hongbaos and meeting up with friends is so comforting. i actually loooove listening to chinese new year songs no matter how repetitive they can be. i actually miss the christmas songs Tangs used to play. i wish i could find the cd. anyway i have a couple of thoughts circling my brain. but they are all really depressing. after group slots yday we went eating and shopping!! hoohoo i love my group! so fun! too bad mel couldnt join us.

we saw this really cute baby which was soooooooooo adorable my goodness i kept touching his nose and cheeks and hands! he was such a cute little babyboyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss him already. but claire doesnt like babies and she wasnt even converted when she saw how cute he was! i wonder why some people dont like babies. i loooooove babies and animals.

kyna and i have concluded that we will never find love. ever. but thats different for her cos at least she has a bf. but for me i think its very very true. i havent been HAPPILY attached (the key word is happily) since like sec2. i am already going to be 18. shit.

doing my crit comm now. quite relaxing i must say. for now la cos i havent showed lofty and i sure will have to redo it after showing him so.. but so far year 2 life has been good leh! like much more relaxing than year 1. but of course its because i have put studying on hold given the limited time i have left before my tsd prelims. gosh. i miss my friends. must meet up!

anyway classmates thanks for voting me for face of the year haha. it feels very oddly different from the time in sec4 when i was nominated for prom queen. i have no idea why though

loves all.

hey :)

school has started for approximately one week already and i've been getting the hang of it. waking up early, coming home late (but not late like work), waiting all day for breaks, hanging out at the canteen. haha. i know this will be a good year. i want to study hard and play hard too.

no more staying up till so late talking to so many people online, no more struggling to wake up the next day for work at tangs, no more putting on makeup anyhow anyhow and then getting remarks like "your eyeshadow is uneven" at work (huge BUMMER), no more funmbling my pockets for my name badge, no more waking up half an hour earlier to curl my hair (i have curled it permanently.), no more smiling at the people i like at work, no more hoping for fun to happen during boring work, no more being nice and friendly to everyone, no more drinking pao pao cha everyday, no more racking my brains deciding what to eat around orchard, no more long slacking periods in the locker room, no more traumatising scenes of women changing in locker room, no more chocolates given by nice superiors, no more carrying heavy clocks for the redemption counter, no more flirting with delivery boys from ite, no more searching high and low for scotch tape/double sided tape, no more singing of xmas songs along with the overhead speaker, no more salivating at pretty luggages, no more laughing our heads off at the dumbest things and finally no more ............(EDIT)

how weird things change so fast, i remember the day of my interview at tangs i told my sis very dreamily, "have you ever wondered about how your life might change once you start working in a new environment? like how mine would change tmr when i start work at tangs!" and my sis said her usual, "you damn drama". but now when i look back i just laugh at how funny things can piece themselves together and how some things can make or break you in such a short time. it is true that i miss tangs alot but it doesnt seem right anymore. i guess there's a time and place for everything and the important thing now is to study.

btw i curled my hair and i look like an auntie hahaha my dad says i look like my grandmother! my sis says even my grandmother's perm is nicer. but i still choose to stick by my own hair and ming's mom. maybe tmr after i wash it it will be better cos now its like AFRO cos i bunned it up today while emcee-ing haha cos i know victorians will get a shock. today i escaped getting dunked during sea regatta and it was a painful 5 hours being at east coast under the scorching sun, dehydrated, tired from waking up at 5am and being in school by 6 (CRAZY SHIT), yeah i could sleep on the dirty benches la. anyway it went pretty well and chengwei's good la walao! i shut my mouth he also can do alone please, somemore call me professional MY FOOT! anyway its fun while it lasted, orientation. am sunburnt..

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS LYRICS
"It Ends Tonight"
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

BLAH

in loooooove

everyone's in loooooove! hello to school gates! went back to school today for council despite it being a public holiday oh gosh but it was alright and ya i'm looking forward to school. to become a better person too. :( -> :)

love, i'll post all the pictures next time haha