what's love?
what's love? i've always wondered what love is. and my perspective of love changes with the blink of an eye. i'm so fickle; one minute its having your heart beat uncontrollably and another minute is another something else. and right now, love to me is saving all my love for my future husband!! cheesy as it may sound, i really think this is the best take on love i can get at this age. plus its positive and beneficial. i wouldnt want to marry a man i know i've not kept my promises to. because that would mean a lifetime of guilt and regret. i dont want to ever have to divorce anyone this lifetime. because divorces/separations are hurtful, and knowing myself, i'd take ages to get over sad-and-heartbreaking-and-soul-shattering stuff like that. even puppy love i find soul shattering. or rather, i found, once.
ah well! i cannot bring myself to come to terms with the fact that TSD juniors are coming in so soon. wll i keep my promises about not treating them like slaves? will i teach them whatever i have learnt from TSD despite having an extremely busy year? will they listen to me and help me with my piece? will they bitch about us (HAHA) behind our backs? all these i really cant visualise. i really am going to try my best to be a nice senior. preferably like karmun(who's really sincere and kind with words)/glanies(who treated us kindly, bought us breakfast)/nicola(who made tuna cheese sandwiches for me and then later said i put on weight while modelling for her hmmm). ah this time of the year is when i always take some time out from work and zone out. and then just think about this year, all the things i've done, the friendships i've forged, the happiness/sadness, the birthday, the family, etc. and its been a great learning experience for me to be able to study in my alleged dream school, but yet develop into such a jaded individual because of the school. its both good and bad, happy and sad. i'm glad to have been allocated to 06a15, though initially i thought we'd never bond as a class, and perhaps not so much as to have reached that goal even now, but the people as individuals are really nice, and we do share underlying similiarities. and i'm happy because i cant imagine myself in other arts classes, TOTALLY! and the class is.... somewhat special and a good experience i'd remember this lifetime. the numerous things like family3, tsd public pee/promos/midyears, birthdays, aprils fool, racial harmony, etc. quite memorable now looking back arent they? :) and its funny how all of us hate school so much. i've never seen as many school-haters in my lifetime. ah.. and its jc2 next year. i think i'd cry when i'm studying for my A Levels and reflecting back on jc1 days... :( all the emceeing for vjc celebrations, forging friendships with councillors/teachers.. ah. seems like 4 years of secondary school has been squeezed into one.
yesterday we did our pre-Mr Ng-departure-celebration for Mr Ng. hahaha, was really funny. i suggested singing "auld lang syne" and we all did, eventually, though halfway we sidetracked and steph/mel sang i'm with you from the canteen all the way past a lecture and into class. and timothy the blur twit was like, "so we're singing what? i'm with you?" LOL! and i was like, "NO TIM!!!! auld lang syne!!!!" hahahahahahahahaahaha. then we crowded around him but because kokjun and kim didnt know about our plan, they took kinda long to come together and it spoilt the surprise :( but nevertheless it was fun! wanted to do Mr Ng's hypnotizing look while singing but everyone said it was mean LOL! couldnt bring myself too either, i'd break out into laughter. then we gave him a photoframe with our photo! and signed across it. really pretty, thanks to clara and angie who made the effort to get the present :D i'll miss Mr Ng. because he's such a nice brother to all of us.
and also... on a sad note, Mr Tang the kind and fun-loving p.e. teacher of ours is leaving to seek greener pastures. SO SAD!!!! i'd really really miss him!! :( he's so nice and fun and so relaxing and comforting. sighs. i really wish he wouldnt go. he's like so nice. he's one of my favourite teachers in vjc. how heartening indeed to see him leave. sighs. so i made a card on behalf of the class. actually i didnt think of it till i was studying at home and realised we should do something for him. my card was fugly. was kinda ashamed of it hahahaha. but i was worried there wasnt any time left so i did it myself. sighs! i think i'll go on failing napha tests worse without him around. boo hoo!!
i swear to get my life back after promos. dennis saw hasnt informed me about dimsum dollies and although i keep seeing him around i always forget to ask!! most probably in i think, or so it is rumoured. the show is at 7pm everyday from 2nd nov till 23rd nov. so i'm super free to go out in the day till late afternoon before i start work! oh and i cant believe dancefloor is on now. haha! and i'm at home! we decided to give it up cos of promos; its too taxing. but there are other competitions though small scale. we'll see.
dont know who told me my ugly family3 picture is on the vjc website, but i cant seem to find it! its the one holding on to the railing of the ride like some freak. lol. saw some national day emceeing pictures, weren't exactly flattering lol!
bye bye world! all the people i used to meet up with so often; i miss you all badly when i'm studying :(
bye bye world!
ah well! i cannot bring myself to come to terms with the fact that TSD juniors are coming in so soon. wll i keep my promises about not treating them like slaves? will i teach them whatever i have learnt from TSD despite having an extremely busy year? will they listen to me and help me with my piece? will they bitch about us (HAHA) behind our backs? all these i really cant visualise. i really am going to try my best to be a nice senior. preferably like karmun(who's really sincere and kind with words)/glanies(who treated us kindly, bought us breakfast)/nicola(who made tuna cheese sandwiches for me and then later said i put on weight while modelling for her hmmm). ah this time of the year is when i always take some time out from work and zone out. and then just think about this year, all the things i've done, the friendships i've forged, the happiness/sadness, the birthday, the family, etc. and its been a great learning experience for me to be able to study in my alleged dream school, but yet develop into such a jaded individual because of the school. its both good and bad, happy and sad. i'm glad to have been allocated to 06a15, though initially i thought we'd never bond as a class, and perhaps not so much as to have reached that goal even now, but the people as individuals are really nice, and we do share underlying similiarities. and i'm happy because i cant imagine myself in other arts classes, TOTALLY! and the class is.... somewhat special and a good experience i'd remember this lifetime. the numerous things like family3, tsd public pee/promos/midyears, birthdays, aprils fool, racial harmony, etc. quite memorable now looking back arent they? :) and its funny how all of us hate school so much. i've never seen as many school-haters in my lifetime. ah.. and its jc2 next year. i think i'd cry when i'm studying for my A Levels and reflecting back on jc1 days... :( all the emceeing for vjc celebrations, forging friendships with councillors/teachers.. ah. seems like 4 years of secondary school has been squeezed into one.
yesterday we did our pre-Mr Ng-departure-celebration for Mr Ng. hahaha, was really funny. i suggested singing "auld lang syne" and we all did, eventually, though halfway we sidetracked and steph/mel sang i'm with you from the canteen all the way past a lecture and into class. and timothy the blur twit was like, "so we're singing what? i'm with you?" LOL! and i was like, "NO TIM!!!! auld lang syne!!!!" hahahahahahahahaahaha. then we crowded around him but because kokjun and kim didnt know about our plan, they took kinda long to come together and it spoilt the surprise :( but nevertheless it was fun! wanted to do Mr Ng's hypnotizing look while singing but everyone said it was mean LOL! couldnt bring myself too either, i'd break out into laughter. then we gave him a photoframe with our photo! and signed across it. really pretty, thanks to clara and angie who made the effort to get the present :D i'll miss Mr Ng. because he's such a nice brother to all of us.
and also... on a sad note, Mr Tang the kind and fun-loving p.e. teacher of ours is leaving to seek greener pastures. SO SAD!!!! i'd really really miss him!! :( he's so nice and fun and so relaxing and comforting. sighs. i really wish he wouldnt go. he's like so nice. he's one of my favourite teachers in vjc. how heartening indeed to see him leave. sighs. so i made a card on behalf of the class. actually i didnt think of it till i was studying at home and realised we should do something for him. my card was fugly. was kinda ashamed of it hahahaha. but i was worried there wasnt any time left so i did it myself. sighs! i think i'll go on failing napha tests worse without him around. boo hoo!!
i swear to get my life back after promos. dennis saw hasnt informed me about dimsum dollies and although i keep seeing him around i always forget to ask!! most probably in i think, or so it is rumoured. the show is at 7pm everyday from 2nd nov till 23rd nov. so i'm super free to go out in the day till late afternoon before i start work! oh and i cant believe dancefloor is on now. haha! and i'm at home! we decided to give it up cos of promos; its too taxing. but there are other competitions though small scale. we'll see.
dont know who told me my ugly family3 picture is on the vjc website, but i cant seem to find it! its the one holding on to the railing of the ride like some freak. lol. saw some national day emceeing pictures, weren't exactly flattering lol!
bye bye world! all the people i used to meet up with so often; i miss you all badly when i'm studying :(
bye bye world!
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