in my cupcake world, all mean people will turn into choco cupcakes which i will then EAT!

OMG HI!

2007-03-14T23:40:00.000+08:00

hahahahahaha what a retarded title to start with, why hello there everyone welcome back to my lonely ol' blog! its been ages since i ever stepped foot here and it kinda smells like decay already but fret not ya common tests are over and so was the really sudden geog trip to msia so i can blog now. i doubt anyone is going to read this (hey trust me when i say that okay i am not like you-know-who) because i have no fan base (no actually it doesnt take a fan base to have readers does it but whatever ah!)

okay to digress...... tmr's chalet for 06a15! actually it started today but um not many people could make it. i was one of them who couldnt so it was kinda cancelled and we're meeting tmr. and guess what i have a myspace account wahah! i am so slow in these things. you can call me a tech idiot because once i get to know how to use friendster i would never be able to bring myself to go pick up something newer and better like myspace so it took so much procrastination on my part. but now after using it i think i might not really go back all that much and still stick to friendster cos thats where most of my friends are haha. oh well its been a rather weird march holidays you know, because i have not been studying (sorry too lazy to care) but neither have i been really out there having fun. still recovering from the semi subconscious state of returning from foreign land ha ha and so.... have not really met up with my besties. anyway i left in such a hurry (i didnt even think my parents would agree but they did wow) i didnt tell everyone so.... so much miscommunication and all now, all the late smses and i didnt bother to reply to calls/smses. sighs sometimes i wish i could just throw my phone into the toilet bowl and not bother about all that i receive through it because it seriously stresses me out. big time. when people ask me "hey you going to this" and then when you dont reply they try calling you and you turn your phone to silent so your mom wont ask you why you arent picking it up. sighs. just give me a break! all i want to do this holidays is to meet up with my besties only! because we hardly ever have the time to do so. and they mean more to me then what you guys are calling me for. except class chalets/tsd of course.

omg and after so long of not blogging i am still at 0 love potential ha ha ha. i just have no bloody idea why but it doesnt matter i am quite happy being single now. i confided in a classmate the other day that i can never fall in love with who who who and then it all just boils down to myself having high expectations. my mom tells me not to go for style because my dad had none either when she met him but they still ended up great anyway but looking at my dad's temper maybe style has got an indirect link to temper so i still had better stick to my good ol' rules of boys needing to have some style! :D i dont really mean burberry or gucci everywhere but i dont really have a liking for OP, billabong etc. sometimes i think even plain ol' giordano is good enough. just dont go too much into the crap "surf" brands because they're so urgh!

but anyway the msia trip was fun shit. we all had a great time i guess, but i just got a lil too sleepy on the last night. actually i always am la. the people i shared rooms with were great. loved clara's company especially on the 2nd night waha! partly cos the hotel was better and no on was interrupting our er ren shi jie (omg forgive me if you think i am cheena, please dont judge me by that phrase i just felt it would express my thoughts spot on). but before i go on any further i would like to say that nobody spoilt the trip worse than josef tan himself as our teacher in charge because

1) he accused me of flirting with the immigration counter person when it was THE man who started a conversation with "so where you going" and then "for how long" so i just replied then at the end i asked him if he needed to chop my paper cos we all heard from huajia that we gotta be careful about the stamping all. then after clearance we all waited for each other and obviously i was the last and josef said "why did you have to flirt with the guy". wtf.

2) even worse, on the bus in the presence of numerous vj students whom i did not know because i dont take geog, he said on the microphone "all of us got cleared except lijia who flirted with the officer.." and everyone laughed. he obviously isn't very mature for his age and his motto in life is to live by SEEING, not BELIEVING.

oh well i shall let bygones be bygones since he bought me a slice of cake for my birthday and a mirror but i never thanked him for the cake so at least now i feel better.

i am getting fatter by each passing minute. therefore i forced myself to work out today on the treadmill and did some dancing after that. i ran for like only 15min and then settled for dancing because i just hate running! we run in school during p.e. all the time so... anyway when i run on the treadmill it just gets so depressing looking at the small screen waiting for the calorie-burnt count to increase ever so slowly, i figured i would lose more calories by dancing in 10min. no seriously. anyway i ate just one tablespoon full of rice and one piece of fish small enough for my tortoise to chew on for 2min and am hungry right now but i refuse to enter the kitchen because
enter kitchen -> open fridge -> taking some leftovers to eat -> low on nutritional value and high on fat still OR, worse case scenario, i enter the kitchen and the damn good biscuits from lexus look me in the eye and beg me to take a bite! they are really fattening btw. i really really need to slim down btw. as in rEALLY. some people dont agree but i suspect they are afraid that i really might slim down ha ha ha!

omg i quite like photograph by nickleback these days. one reason why is because sometimes the lyrics feels so relatable. the part where he goes "kissed the first girl i kissed, i was so nervous that i nearly missed" sounds so child-like haha. it makes me laugh every single time i play it. so adorable. but then overall the music is nostalgic and resounds of the "letting go" phase which really makes a good contrast with some of the words. i like it! my favourite song right now is i wanna love you by akon! it never fails to make me move my body ha ha ha how apt the description i made. zzzzzzz i was kidding really.

i really still wonder why people smoke. is it really because it makes them look cool? is it?

anyway i have almost blown my entire collection of angbao money. shit. i have no idea wth i spent everything on either. although i kept a record but it always doesnt tally! like my mom gives me 50 per week and so by right i should be able to survive and the expenditure should balance off with the money given but i always end up using some of my savings and its really really bad. its getting out of hand. i really have to do something about it. hmmm. on second thought, i bought so many new clothes this/last month! my wardrobe is almost new haha. how lucky. i now have a better choice!

ooh btw my dearest besties came up right to my doorstep and surprised me on my birthday! what a pleasant surprise. we had my favourite brownie baked by huijie and then went to the park to play catching. its so fun. i love playing exciting games like catching and blind man's buff HAHAHA omg brings back damn funny memories! of my childhood and all. will upload pictures soon btw stupid blogger wont allow it now. argh.

ah anyway common tests didnt go too well i have this vague suspiscion i am going to fail horribly but i cant be bothered right now because my tsd exams are the top priority. and probably thats the reason why i have 0 love potential.

met up with mirabel yesterday! bought my bleached skirt from topshop and totally maxed out the cards. i have a grand total of 18 left. 0 in one card and 18 in the other because my uncle bought me100 worth for my birthday. :( i always feel so sad when i spend like that. i really do feel the pinch. anyway we watched music and lyrics. hugh grant is quite desirable i must say. drew barrymore is cute too, but it is so cliche i would have really enjoyed stomp much better but it was on sneak at 1145. :/

craving for kamboat dimsum (scotts level 5!) RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! it is so good!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

k byebye!

hello moto

2007-02-20T21:26:00.000+08:00

ah shit everyone is doing crit comm. i am hardly halfway there but i am not doing anything about it. partly because i handed in whatever i could have possibly included inside the crit comm to mr lofty that time (1 month ago HAHAHAFFFFF) and i just have no idea how much further i can enhance it when i have not slotted AT ALL. omg shit. ah whatever la stress so much also no use i should just sit back and enjoy life haha. ya right i am actually panicking RIGHT HERE RIGHT NOW AS I AM TYPING OMGF. not over crit comm though. over SLOTS. shit i really hate the juniors' timetables because its so hard to coordinate a timing for us to have slots. and thursday is my birthday and friday i have a dinner and saturday i have a dinner and a lunch to attend. ah. omgomgomg chill lijia chill.

okok everything will settle itself. i just have to relax. thursday is my birthday afterall. i cant possibly slot (because i dont want to hehe, i end at 2 then i have to wait for my juniors till 525?!) so i will go home and sleep and celebrate with my family at night. and btw there's this really good song by jewel called foolish games, from the soundtrack of batman and robin. it is so romantic. i love it.

my dad just gave me 300 because he was awarded some top performer shit at work and received quite some money. i feel loaded now even though 300 really isnt alot of you think about it... actually i tell you all a secret (its really something i've never told anyone!) i want to get this gucci belt. i've been eyeing it for some time already. i have no idea how much it costs. i dont even want to go look at it ANOTHER time because i think it is ridiculous i should ever want a gucci belt. i know myself too well. because i am a spendthrift and i dont know how to save money. and i really think it is wrong to want something even my parents dont lust after. okay after blogging about it i've decided that i wont buy it. i'm just never contented with everything i have.

i havent gotten down to counting my hongbao money but i think its already about 400. cos my relatives have given me hongbaos for my birthday as well. my grandma gives 100 per shot so should be quite alot now. i dont rip them open immediately after reaching home because i think its rude, i think it spoils the surprise at the end of the 15 days and because i already have the 300 in my hands and am not in eager need of money (if not i would peep at all the angbaos before i even reach home please). hurray. it just feels so comfortable knowing you have money to fall back on. really know. i always feel damn insecure when i have no money. like that day the outing with 4e. everything "cheryl can pay for me!"

okay so now updates on my chinese new year. i wanted to post pictures but blogger is just retarded. it wont appear so heck. day 1 i went to my grandma's house in the morning and my uncle's house in the afternoon then another relative's house in the late afternoon. day 2 went to my grandma's house for dinner. omg she spent alot of effort on the sharks fin but it turned out really thick and gooey because she used a lil too much starch. it was damn gross (i'm sorry grandmama) and i kept using the spoon to ladle it up and watch it drip sadly back into the bowl (not forgetting slowly, since it was hell of a starch soup). my grandma spent like 70 on the sharks fin itself and even more on the crab meat but i was just too turned off so i didnt eat a single thing in that bowl except for the very pathetic pieces of crab i managed to pluck out of the soup and scrape away the starch coated on them. eeeyuck thinking about it now makes my stomach churn real bad. ooh but she cooked my favourite tempura prawns! ummm but they were kinda soggy and the batter stuck to the prawns after some time haha. sighs. i could tell my grandma was sad when we didnt touch the sharks fin. you know sometimes when i disappoint people and i see the look on their faces, the sad look, it can kill me.

my uncle has opened a cafe at UE Square. its called Venus Cafe so go!!!!! the food is ultra cheap really.! ;D

OOH before i forget i have have have to thank CLARA LIM for teaching me lit over the phone!!!!!!!!!! thanks SOSOSO much girl! you really helped me understand the extract ALOT :)

loves all! oops and happy vday to those who gave me stuff i'm really so sorry i didnt return anything!

what a fun day!

2007-02-16T23:39:00.000+08:00

hehehehehe!! finally decided to come online and blog because i just had a damn fun day. it was an outing with my sec3/4 classmates. omg so damn fun! okay for a start, alot of people came. me cheryl brinda crystal shinyu jane yuanxin kelvin minhan pohtiong zhihan rongfeng weisiong kiathwee tingsheng yorkyong. okay is that all? did i leave anyone out? yup i think that should be all. thats like ALOT of people if you ask me. we met at marina square at supposedly 3 but the boys were so late. anyway nvm. omg the boys have grown to become SO much taller! and like so much cuter and hotter. HAHA. now they all seem quite eligible. but anyway yuanxin was DAMN funny i swear. we were sitting diagonally opposite each other then he said XX is hot and like made a joke out of it in his really usual idiotic style and i just couldnt stop laughing. and then he wanted to eat kelvin's brocolli and i said use a fork and he said the stalk is for him to pick up the brocolli. HAHAHAHA anyway must see then will laugh. i swear i've never had such a good laugh in ages. so thankful for this meetup! after eating at Changing Appeitites we went to the pool place and lingered outside then some people left and we went to Mind Cafe at dhoby ghaut. its basically this cafe where you get to play board games at $2 per hour. but after adding everything up the service charge like cost alot. ah nvm as long as we all had a fun time. i really did. and yorkyong kept making really hilarious noises when we were playing this damn scary and irritating and confusing game (to me la) and he kept WOAH-ing and BOO-ing HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA and then after that when we left at the traffic light he re-demonstrated everything. it is the first time this year i ever laughed so sincerely and heartily. i so miss these people who'd crack such lame jokes you'd want to smack their asses and cry. seriously. bring me back to those good old days!

sighssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss i really do miss those days. i hope we do this often. it's so fun.

i have a deprived life. or so i just realised. ah but actually what defines deprived? actually i think i should feel contented. so :)

had chinese new year celebration in the morning as usual. okay goodnight! ooh my tsd group prelims went well i suppose. love all. damn tired zzzzzzzzzzzzz

4E FOREVER!

please dont think i'm crazy

2007-02-11T20:37:00.000+08:00

oh my God i just couldnt resist coming online to blog because mydad has been a bloody pain in the neck i swear. i really hate him now. from the very core of my heart. he has so much angst inside him which is caused by his workload and he takes it out on us ocassionally. even though its only ocassionally, "ocassionally" also hurts. i really hate it. because its times like that when i feel i'm not a child, not the gift of life but actually some toy for my parents to vent their anger on. it makes me feel hatred against them because i really really believe that children are gifts from God we ought not to take granted of. but maybe it all seems too easy to be a parent now to me. perhaps when i grow up i will understand. but my dad just shouted at my sis like mad and i feel sorry for her even though we are not on talking terms.

sighs. i can just go on and on about the situation of my life, go on ranting hardcore about how mean people are, go on waxing lyrical about the good things too, but i'll never be able to sum life up. i will never be able to describe fully my life or life in general.

on a lighter note, my tsd exams are on the 14 of february. which is valentine's day of course. but its alright. i wouldnt be much affected anyway because i dont score dates like other girls do on valentine's day. and its been going on for since valentine's day appeared in my life. probably secondary school. but anyway after group exam at 3-5pm i'm going out for dinner with the group yay! been spending lots of time with groupmates and am beginning to find them alot of fun to be around with :) hope everything goes smoothly!

anyway damn funny. there's this thing called Feeling Fab which vjc year 2s have to sign up for. its sorta like a compulsory enrichment course consisting of choices like yoga, pilates, photography (LOL) and several other dances. i signed up for hiphop obviously, with jiahui, angie, steph, mel, matt. but it turned out kinda weird cos the dance steps were............. well just really weird. so we basically just chatted our time away by the side of the hall and laughed at people who danced awkwardly. and gawked at people who rocked the dancefloor. but anyway. after teaching us the dance steps, the instructors came to personally pick out people to compete. and i was one of the lucky ones. i felt utterly frightened because jiahui and i didnt learn the dance steps. we were talking the whole time. and like when i went up i just managed the first part then started doing my own thing together with the taught steps by looking at the other dancers. omh how embarrassing. thats why zixuan tagged about me dancing in the tagboard. i still think i really embarrassed myself.

i put my life on hold. just for tsd. those crazy nights of ending at 9pm+++ and then returning back to school the next day at like 7am........ i really just dont want to think about anything else other than my theatre pieces so please try not to sms because i might not reply. sorry.

today when i was out buying costumes for the whole group, i shopped a little. it was so fun! i seriously cant imagine myself being attached to a boy anymore. it all seems so NOT me. although i'm always whining that i want a boyfriend and i need someone to take care of me, i'll seriously get sick of the boy and just break it all up in no time. because i have tsd, i have amily, i have friends, i have ambitions and because i have a knack for falling for boys with no ambitions they usually dont understand what my ambitions mean to me. anyway sorry for sidetracking. so today i went to buy the costumes right, (we're all wearing bedroom nightgowns/slips) i went to shop aroundand i bought so much redundant stuff for myself. hahahahahaaha. as usual. i bought a pair of shoes which are damn gorgeous omg and so cheap la only $30! it looks like snakeskin but it isnt. anyway it'll look so good with my black stockings. anyway i also bought a pair of earrings and alot of brooches because necklaces are really expensive these days so i decided to make my own and reuse the chains. i only need nice pendants but how timely, there arent any pendants to be found and i realised brooches make good pendants if you string them carefully. haha

last night i met youk and kt and nicholas after slots at around 730 (actual meeting time was 7 la walao luckily i was late too if not i would have shouted at all of them) on 197 to collect my money back from kt. i still owe him his birthday gift haha. anyway so kt dropped off somewhere along siglap road and the remaining 3 of us rode back to bedok. nicholas left and i went with youk to the interchange to buy my stuff for groups. i just tried to search la but to no avail. so nvm anyway. after that we went to giant to walk walk and talk and then he sent me home but on the bus ride he decided he wanted to eat so we went to bedok food centre to eat! he had lamb soup and i ate my good ol popiah. fastforward we got on the bus at around 930? i reached home soon after and dropped dead on my bed after washing my hair! not forgetting going to cold storage to buy my loreal hot curls spray and the whole lot of foodstuff for my juniors. which youk very kindly helped me carry. hehe, thats all for last night. ooh i was coming up with really dumb ideas during group session and because my piece is about me balding and all the other girls having obsessions with their body parts, i thought of saying "hair implants, beijing 101" which, till now, still cracks me up. hahahaha.

recently i just heard from this boy i met through a mutual friend while working last year. its weird now. we've all changed. people who used to be a huge part of your life are now under the "just friends" category.

to the people i love. i miss you all hardcore. plus my homie!!!!!!!! i hope i am meeting her this thur. if i am lucky i would meet and talk with angela too. loves all much much much.

i put your picture away, sat down and cried today

2007-02-02T20:34:00.000+08:00

haha the words in the title are from a song, although i really did cry today. it's picture by sheryl crow featuring kid rock and it is one of the songs that have the ability to take your breath away. so romantic. i love the words too. they make sense unlike some songs which catch your attention but you never seem to be able to grasp the meaning. ah anyway i really broke down in school today cos i REALLY really am one big mess now. i guess a huge part of that was due to groups which i spend most of my 24hours daily worrying about. anyway i felt really embarrassed for just crying cos its the freaking third time mr lofthouse has seen me in tears. even josef hasn't seen me cry before! thats terrible isnt it. and then he always doesnt know what to say to me and we kinda came to a group piece because they concentrated on my despair. haha. so now.......... i have no idea. tmr's saturday and i'm devoting it to groups. because i need to. prelims is in 2 weeks time. just thinking about it can add lines to my face i swear.

last night was one big sob affair cos we were the last group to leave school at like 945pm. i wanted to take a cab home cos it was damn late and i had econs to do. but i lent youk or rather kt $45 so i had only $2.50 in my wallet. and so i called home to tell my dad to prepare money so the driver wont have to wait. but then he sounded unwilling and that really pissed me off cos it was so damn late what did he expect me to do. WAIT FOR A BUS AND GET HOME IN AN HOURS' TIME? but anyway i just didnt bother about him and hung up. so then when i reached home my mom came out to pay for the cab. so problem solved. but i was feeling tired and pissy about how they didnt show any concern about anything at all. plus groups really wore me out after we came to nothing. so i just shut up and didnt answer their questions. after a short while of reading my econs i just broke down quietly.

and thank God my photoshoot was yesterday cos my eyes were really swollen today. everyone was like "omg what happened to your eyes". thanks for your concern all, i'm fine really cos i just woke up from a super long nap!

today floorball was da bomb! hahahahahaha i looooove playing floorball on friday mornings! its so exciting and funny. and mr seet is so nice and fun to be with! oh by the way i bumped into mr tang the other day. was so surprised and happy to see him! i miss him la. sometimes when you meet people who once meant so much to you in life (not mr tang but basically.. people.) , you just smile at them and chat a little and wonder why nice people can only come and go and not stay for good. but i guess thats life. anyway i really am crap at floorball and everytime the ball comes nearer and nearer i get damn nervous i will stick my tongue out and shake my head at mr seet and signal him not to pass to me but it always doesnt happen so i end up shooting but it goes sideways cos my aiming is like KNS can. hahahaha. i will scream whenever the ball comes and i swear i'll change my ways!! its so ugly

anyway i met youk (thats ming by the way) last evening to talk. cos i was feeling down. luckily he had no school and was bumming around the east which is just a few bustops from my house! so we went to the food centre near my house and ate and talked. felt so much better and i forgot i was sitting on bus 45 la i took it all the way to eunos without knowing haha cos was reading the devil wears prada as usual. then got down and changed a bus just in time to make it back to school at night.

my curls are really getting out of hand! :(

people aren't very trustoworthy afterall. they always let jealousy get involved with their friendships. is there really a need to spoil the friendship like that? THINK ABOUT IT.

zixuan is a face of the year too! i'm going to vote for him.

i have nothing else to say. i love my class (the nice people only though HAHA which is like 17 people out of 18 la so not that bad!) more and more. meeting bel on tuesday/thursday to buy a gift for our ex colleage cos we're not going for her birthday party. yay!! cant wait to meet my homie. loveya all people. take good care of yourselves cos chinese new year is coming woo! love it love it

damn the whole world

2007-01-28T12:07:00.000+08:00

From:
Edwin

Date:
localDateTimewithTimezone("1/26/2007 9:13 AM","timetag1","SG");
Saturday, 27 January, 2007 1:13 AM

Subject:
buterauce

Message:
hows life been treating u? i am guessing tat life`s been gd to u since u r smiling...haha! and wat a nice smile it is too if i do say so myself :)Being a chef, i will have to say u look like a perfectly well done butter sauce as butter sauce breaks all so easily...BUT!...when u finally get it right... The feeling is orgasmic! haha.Am i going over board? :P well, sori... get emotional when it comes to this...not to say u r food butu look kinda yummy too...haha! dun worry i dun mean tat in a cannibalistic way...:PMy msn is shishio82@hotmail.com u? so anyways care to be friends? ;p ,sms me k? 92986129 edwin...maybe we can talk sumtime? :P

i received this utterly, remarkably puke-inducing message from this gross guy on friendster. yuck man damn disturbing. what "you look like a perfectly well done butter sauce"?!?!?!?!! i think these perverts should all go eat shit and die in the process of eating it.

anyway i feel damn frustrated and i am really REALLY trying my best to hold back on vulgarities. i wanted to begin this entry with a F because trust me i am damn pissed with my family but i shall practise self control. chinese new year is only weeks away. thank God! i cant wait for that. i seriously cant. the thought of the cheesy songs and cookies and hongbaos and meeting up with friends is so comforting. i actually loooove listening to chinese new year songs no matter how repetitive they can be. i actually miss the christmas songs Tangs used to play. i wish i could find the cd. anyway i have a couple of thoughts circling my brain. but they are all really depressing. after group slots yday we went eating and shopping!! hoohoo i love my group! so fun! too bad mel couldnt join us.

we saw this really cute baby which was soooooooooo adorable my goodness i kept touching his nose and cheeks and hands! he was such a cute little babyboyyyyyyy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i miss him already. but claire doesnt like babies and she wasnt even converted when she saw how cute he was! i wonder why some people dont like babies. i loooooove babies and animals.

kyna and i have concluded that we will never find love. ever. but thats different for her cos at least she has a bf. but for me i think its very very true. i havent been HAPPILY attached (the key word is happily) since like sec2. i am already going to be 18. shit.

doing my crit comm now. quite relaxing i must say. for now la cos i havent showed lofty and i sure will have to redo it after showing him so.. but so far year 2 life has been good leh! like much more relaxing than year 1. but of course its because i have put studying on hold given the limited time i have left before my tsd prelims. gosh. i miss my friends. must meet up!

anyway classmates thanks for voting me for face of the year haha. it feels very oddly different from the time in sec4 when i was nominated for prom queen. i have no idea why though

loves all.

hey :)

2007-01-08T20:24:00.000+08:00

school has started for approximately one week already and i've been getting the hang of it. waking up early, coming home late (but not late like work), waiting all day for breaks, hanging out at the canteen. haha. i know this will be a good year. i want to study hard and play hard too.

no more staying up till so late talking to so many people online, no more struggling to wake up the next day for work at tangs, no more putting on makeup anyhow anyhow and then getting remarks like "your eyeshadow is uneven" at work (huge BUMMER), no more funmbling my pockets for my name badge, no more waking up half an hour earlier to curl my hair (i have curled it permanently.), no more smiling at the people i like at work, no more hoping for fun to happen during boring work, no more being nice and friendly to everyone, no more drinking pao pao cha everyday, no more racking my brains deciding what to eat around orchard, no more long slacking periods in the locker room, no more traumatising scenes of women changing in locker room, no more chocolates given by nice superiors, no more carrying heavy clocks for the redemption counter, no more flirting with delivery boys from ite, no more searching high and low for scotch tape/double sided tape, no more singing of xmas songs along with the overhead speaker, no more salivating at pretty luggages, no more laughing our heads off at the dumbest things and finally no more ............(EDIT)

how weird things change so fast, i remember the day of my interview at tangs i told my sis very dreamily, "have you ever wondered about how your life might change once you start working in a new environment? like how mine would change tmr when i start work at tangs!" and my sis said her usual, "you damn drama". but now when i look back i just laugh at how funny things can piece themselves together and how some things can make or break you in such a short time. it is true that i miss tangs alot but it doesnt seem right anymore. i guess there's a time and place for everything and the important thing now is to study.

btw i curled my hair and i look like an auntie hahaha my dad says i look like my grandmother! my sis says even my grandmother's perm is nicer. but i still choose to stick by my own hair and ming's mom. maybe tmr after i wash it it will be better cos now its like AFRO cos i bunned it up today while emcee-ing haha cos i know victorians will get a shock. today i escaped getting dunked during sea regatta and it was a painful 5 hours being at east coast under the scorching sun, dehydrated, tired from waking up at 5am and being in school by 6 (CRAZY SHIT), yeah i could sleep on the dirty benches la. anyway it went pretty well and chengwei's good la walao! i shut my mouth he also can do alone please, somemore call me professional MY FOOT! anyway its fun while it lasted, orientation. am sunburnt..

THE ALL-AMERICAN REJECTS LYRICS
"It Ends Tonight"
Your subtleties
They strangle me
I can't explain myself at all.
And all the wants
And all the needs
All I don't want to need at all.

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight
It ends tonight.

A falling star
Least I fall alone.
I can't explain what you can't explain.
You're finding things that you didn't know
I look at you with such disdain

The walls start breathing
My mind's unweaving
Maybe it's best you leave me alone.
A weight is lifted
On this evening
I give the final blow.

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes
All these thoughts locked inside
Now you're the first to know

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight
It ends tonight,
It ends

When darkness turns to light
It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Just a little insight won't make this right
It's too late to fight

It ends tonight,
It ends tonight.
Tonight
Insight
When darkness turns to light,
It ends tonight.

BLAH

in loooooove

2007-01-02T18:38:00.000+08:00

everyone's in loooooove! hello to school gates! went back to school today for council despite it being a public holiday oh gosh but it was alright and ya i'm looking forward to school. to become a better person too. :( -> :)

love, i'll post all the pictures next time haha

all american rejects

2006-12-12T16:40:00.000+08:00

when darkness turns to light it
ends tonight it
ends
tonight

so depressing this song!! but i just cant stop playing it cos its so nice to hear. the thought of my workdays coming to an end real soon gets me even more depressed. if i could have one christmas wish this year, the only thing i would ever wish for from the bottom of my heart is for the holidays to extend. to let me have my time first before i step into the world of vjc and get cynical all over again. i really dont want that. the thought of school reopening turns me off. but then again, when the fun starts, it may not be too bad after all.. but i really just want to be happy like i always am in Tangs. i doubt anyone would be able to understand this.. because i'm really shocked at how enjoyable everything is. i dont think i would be in such a bitter state if i were to work at Tangs everyday. and i think i would be able to get married for sure, ha ha.

nothing to update except that i love ya all. :) merry early christmas to everyone! hehehehe this is my happiest holidays ever!

dilemma part one

2006-11-26T23:35:00.000+08:00

hello, i am having the time of my life at work.

but i still dont know what i want from boys. and i need to find the answer soon.

i love cheryl and huijie forever and i hope that jiahui comes back from cambodia safe and sound. to the rest, i have not forgotten you guys. you know i love yall..

heehehehehe

2006-11-19T23:17:00.000+08:00

hey all! i am too lazy and tired to blog but i shall! i'm having a great time. work's fun. great colleages and all and i love gift wrapping. anyway umm kinda forgot what i wanted to say. anyway nvm. today kt and youk came to my workplace and i wrapped kt's shoes with my powerful skills. see i guessed correctly that on thursday they wanted to scare me or something by popping out. but it failed. but i'm quite smart. royce came along too. he's nice. ate for an hour and i was just in time to slot my card! had dinner with bel and its just so weird how we have SO many similarities. and we were saying that when we get our pay we'd wear our corsets out and buy everything we want and fill out stomachs out till the corsets burst. hahaha.

anyway people love bringing their babies to Tangs and i love ogling at them and playing with them!! anyway i cant believe tmr's monday feels like tmr's sunday to me!! see working so much makes me mad. but anyway work's fun haha ok love bye!

i'm like wtf

2006-11-16T11:42:00.000+08:00

i've read someone's xanga site. tsd people ought to know.

WHAT, THE, FUCK?! tell me about it.

my ____

2006-11-16T00:24:00.000+08:00

this boy at work.
he takesmybreathaway

um, happy?

2006-11-14T23:13:00.000+08:00

JUST GOT HOME! am kinda breathless. but today was fun. work's always fun la. hee.

and today was the most high day cos we all got high sucking on skittles while working and at like 935 i had to go up to this boy working at the shoe section to ask for his number (because i bet that after 835pm there would be less than 2 customers coming to wrap their gifts but ah!). but its okay i mean i'm not the kind who freaks out at such things cos me and such things, WE GO WAY BACK :) hahahaha my colleages got freaked out at how brave i was and so after that i was really worried he'd think i was interested in him i said "dont worry its just a dare from my friends". hahaha, i was supposed to say like "can i have your number darling?" (mirabel's TERRIBLE idea! that girl!!!!!! drama mama!) hahahaha got all of us laughing our heads off and we even sang London Bridge (not the nursery rhyme one! its the one by fergie!) and dancing like whores hahahaha. all these u'll better enjoy now before time flies past and u cant catch your youth back anymore. was temporarily doing some admin stuff cos i volunteered to for the first half of today. so i did the work with this malay boy (whom someone thinks is cute hmmm!!) but i was WAY faster than him. hahahaha. and the older people there are SO nice! this woman was so nice she kept asking me to go for a break and then when i finished she kept saying thanks. what for? u're paying me to do such simple work! that malay boy darn cute he kept eavesdropping on the old ladies' talking and laughs in such a funny way and he's like so darn friendly. and the people at work always get so shocked when i say i am pure chinese. like get over it already, i've been working for a whole week! but everyone still asks if i am malay/caucasian/german?!?!?!?!!?!?!?!?!??!

the most ridiculous i ever heard! and the impressionable (or should i say VERY impressionable) 16 year olds like to ask about really weird questions... haha. my dearest uncle came to visit me at work today!! i was eating a sweet and folding my wrapper into a heart shape extremely peacefully, not being disturbed or distracted by anything when this man just came infront of me and it was a familiar face. we then walked around Tangs and he left to meet his friend. not too bad, at least he came to visit! vikki thought he was my boyfriend (yes if my uncle reads this i know he is going to be happy to hear that he looks young). vikki is SOOOOOOOOO cute!!!!! she's just bloody cute. she' on attachment from Phillipines and she's like the fucking cutest lady i've ever met. so sincere and... aww childlike. (she likes my hair and i let her smell it today she gave me such a genuine look of "oh-yeah-your-hair-smells-darn-good) hahahahah!

glad i am working tmr, mirabel cant believe i dont club (after all that mad dancing today), mirabel is going to ask our indian man for his friendster :D

muchie lovie people. i love ya all.

zihui: angie's dog soon i promise.

its now that you know who your best friends are. love huijiecheryl.

where'd you go? i miss you so

2006-11-13T16:26:00.000+08:00

heya all :) just came home from TSD group meeting!! it was like, fun. HAHA. i know i'm not supposed to have fun during a group meeting but it was fun!! huiying couldnt come so we spoke through the phone. i dont think i will go for tmr's meeting cos i have work at 10. i mean i could probably make it for the meeting with Mr Lofthouse at 830 but i really dont want to come to school with such thick makeup (which Tangs forces us to have daily) like a drag queen and wearing my work clothes. and i guess i can always get my group mates to fill me in. so yeah. sorry group mates!!

well i was the second to reach today. haha. kyna was first but she disappeared. then claire came. then mel, then tanying. we settled on our idea, then tanying had to go. from there, we discussed a little and proceeded to talk about things unrelated to TSD. hahahahaa! it was really relaxing. and to discover some stuff. kinda unexpected. and that kyna. she told me "lijia my friend says u are very blahblah" and then i turned to look at her, and i was like "huh?" and then that woman said, "yeah my friend wants to bang you around". (bang is a very bad word btw if you dont know!!) what a rude shock!!! so vulgar that kyna! always say fuck like nobody's business! haiyoo, anyway chatting with her, claire and mel was quite interesting. mel that poor girl. sighs. claire keeps saying i'm weird. lol. she hasn't seen so many people yet man!! they are weirder than me! but my groupmates are fun people and its fun being in an all girls group. hehehehe. :)

today is my off day so obviously i didnt go for work. sian. miss Tangs. lol!! :( TOMORROW. TOMORROW IS COMING. WOO.

my mom loves me ALOT, i am so glad and so happy to be her daughter. my dad too. and everyone who loves me. i know. thank you ALL so much ok. i really appreciate the love. :)

yesterday was 1211 my favourite boy!

i

2006-11-13T16:22:00.000+08:00

you make me feel i'm alive

2006-11-11T20:33:00.000+08:00

back then
i swore i'd never love again
i swore my heart would never mend
said love wasn't worth the pain
but then i hear it call my name

(i think love found me in the rough)

i'm really really SO happy with my job at Tangs. hahaha. its been like heaven (despite the 24/7 standing on my feet, short lunch breaks, upset managers, kaypoh aunties, rude customers) to me. Tangs is now a FAMILY to me. i enjoy work SO much especially with the friendly aunties and malay girls. i am SO gonna miss this place when i leave. therefore leaving my workplace daily is a bittersweet thing. i LOVE working there. i LOVE the people there. thank God!!! :)

today was great.. joking and laughing with priya(my colleage, not the senior) about life, boys, colleages, food, short lunch breaks with mariam (who said i was quiet today), getting to know mirabel whose sister is in my school and has the same good taste in boys with me, judy the super sweet 16yr old always talking crap with me during breaks, ETC ETC.. great customers.. aww.. i so love this place. sorry for the repetition. but today there was something not too good. but still hehehehehehe. anyway tmr and monday i'm off! its my rest days. :) + :( misses

btw i'm located at the gift wrap counter on the 3rd level Tangs Orchard, NEAR THE MEN'S BRIEFS AHEM. they even have thongs there facing us eurgh what an ugly sight!! and transparent stuff oh noo!!! and the male customers think we are te sales assistants and ask us about them and i just go red in the face lolol!! like omg i never knew they had transparent types and EURGH!! but so funny.

loves all. too lazy to blog. HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAREST UNCLE!! :D i will stay at home to complete your present tmr and monday!

i love life. do you? i think i've matured. my shweeeeeeeeeeeeeet y.

you're gonna find yourself somewhere.. somehow.

2006-11-08T22:13:00.000+08:00

heya. been a great day, much fun working though its damn tiring standing 24/7. but serving customers is really a joy, especially today (my first day! how proud!) when i saw two uber cute sweetie pie baby muffin babies!! aww, and one parent was so sweet she kept making the baby wave at me. but her husband was kinda pissy at her, which is pretty man. but he doesnt look like a bad man so i give him the benefit of the doubt. lol! i love kids and i want to have kids.

and now i'm actually in Tangs customer service (turn into the corridor after u see the Island Shop) until friday when i will get the actual job i applied for. the actual job is gonna be so exciting. i feel like Santa's helper! :D guess what job??

have to wear black pants daily, so ugly! luckily my mom tried (the key word here is TRIED) to help me sew them into drainpipe skinnys or else i'd die of embarrassment cos the pants are fuglyglygly. and the shoes oh gosh they are worse. i bought them from Tangs and they hurt like crazy my new found colleage and i both took off our shoes during work lolol! tak glam! but too pain! roars

and the people i meet are great. they're so nice! :) mostly malays. they girls call me babydoll. i always cringe at that cos its so not me. anyway there are malay boys there, quite cute!! lol! :D happy working kwan lijia ;p

i am looking forward to the $950 i will get at the end of all these.

met up with cheryl and huijie today for lunch. the highlight of the day. and more to come on 23&24! i told my boss already!

me miss oooooooooooo, oooo oooo!

what?

2006-11-07T20:57:00.000+08:00

what's this world coming to? tell me, i
c a n t
h e a r
y o u

anymore

MOVING ON, I got a job. i feel so excited i could burst now telling you about how exciting its going to be since xmas is coming. but i am in an extremely bitter state because i know fo' sho i'm spending xmas alone. and while my work ties in very closely with xmas and happy gleeful kids and parents.. there's this emptiness inside of me which is crying to be heard. and i heard it and oh sorry for this emo entry i am getting too much these days.

i am so thankful (you have no idea) for this job. i am to darn lucky to land myself a job i think i would like, on the first day of my job hunting. i hope i make the best of this. will elaborate on the place and time and workdays and stuff in my next entry. its in orchard. too lazy to say now. but i know my parents are very happy i am working so near them.

bought another pair of skinny jeans in a faded grey! ONLY $90! so darn pretty. orgasmic. tell me about it. even better my mom paid for it altho she made herself so darn clear that i was supposed to wear a VERY long top when i wear them. my mom gave me lotsa money today too. she's real nice today hmmm.

tmr huijie and cheryl my dearests are coming to town to lunch with me.. seriously i am like fucking touched. sorry for being vulgar but i'm kinda tired now and i really just am so touched. when we're supposed to meet at tamp but they now have to come to town just to lunch with me and then go back to bedok. i really love ya both. thanks so much for the initiative and thought behind every single thing we've ever been through. jiahui picked the wrong date and said she wanna lunch with me too but then afterwards had to push that to another time. i guess i wont have time to meet the friends i've always promised to meet. i'm so sorry. esp babe, whose birthday present is still with me. i WILL make time for u guys cos its only a five-day work week but its not a saturday-sunday break kinda thing yeah. i dont get to choose which days i dont work. so we have to work that out but otherwise i am always

missing you besties.

how was halloween with the cool crew?

just thank God for everything

2006-11-06T19:26:00.000+08:00

today's been totally.......... tiring. i am like so shagged. but happy. and excited.

today had my op. was fine. Mr Ng examined my group. well you can say we got lucky but then it was kinda nerve wrecking too cos he's a familiar face as angie said. but he's great and it's all good. he smiled a couple of times while i presented, am glad for that. it kinda eased me. i thought i spoke too fast but my team members thought it was fine, slow even. weird. hmmm. then the question they posed me with was "how much will your prototype cost?" OH WELL OH WELL i obviously did not prepare for this question so i think i kinda died there. i was so dumb, i said "um, $300 without contract" and then this male teacher started laughing and i heard snickers from the audience. i guess i blew my chance there but i just want to say this entire thing has been a learning experience and i learnt from it and i thank everyone who has thought me a thing or two; even if you are unaware of it. and HEY! no wonder Mr Ng kept saying "good luck for pw" in his smses to me!! he must have been aware he would be examining me! but maybe not.. cos they should only know the group index number. but nvm. the other two lucky groups got Mr Dax Young, so they should be fine. i sincerely hope A15 does real good. :)

after op we had our class lunch!! was SO MUCH fun!! hahahahahaha totally enjoyed laughing my head off at the distorted individual pictures elroy took for all of us using his laptop. its so funny!! well we first had lunch at the foodcourt then went to eat icecream and basically just lost our marbles at Venezia haha and yes the green tea icecream isnt that bad at all! and the best thing about class outings are that you get to taste every flavour of icecream and i regret to say my icecream flavour was the worst of all but it sure didnt taste bitter to me or jiahui although matthew said so! we were so noisy (as always) but it was great fun. i really hope we have more of such outings. and steph, i do not act as mommy to the class! i'm just being the responsible ct rep. Mr Tan didnt join us cos of his sore eye. and Huajia's eyes are kinda swollen!! hope they both cure fast. anyway today we paka with Huajia say wanna do hand signal to her when she speaks too soft/loud/slow or she doesnt have enough eye contact damn funny!! i did the not-enough-eye-contact signal to her and she looked at me twice lol in that "hey-did-i-just-see-lijia-signal-to-me-look!! its really quite funny hahahahahah. but anyway she really did okay la. and ginny koh warned me (with her angry but not angry look lol) not to make funny faces at her like i did in her dry run last time HAHA she damn cute i always cant resist making fun of her. anyway i didnt la this is A Levels man no joke joke!! :D

MY OH MY Mr Tan just sms-ed me something so bloody nice i cant bloody believe this!!!!

I AM LIKE WTF NOW>!?!!>!>!>!!?!??!?!?!?!?! i tell you he can make me cry.

anyway i just went to plaza sing to buy a birthday present. was supposed to meet my mom but ah lazy to go to meet her so just went straight home. the long bus ride on 14 can kill. and the army boys on the way dont smell too good. went to the childcare centre just around the corner to see if they had vacancies but sadly they dont. i love kids.

HOW COME EVERYTIME YOU COME AROUND MY LONDON BRIDGE WANNA GO DOWN

miss my dearest cheryl, my dearest huijie and my dearest jiahui. all are MY dearestssssssss!!!! and babe owes me a date hmmm.

you dont mean a thing

2006-11-05T14:10:00.000+08:00

hi! tmr's my op. so nervous. doesnt help that i have absolutely no idea what questions the examiners might ask. AND i cant think of any possible questions now!!but overall still so glad that this is the last of project work i am ever going to see. sighs! its bittersweet. but more on the bitter side. haha.

i hope VJ018 VJ019 VJ020 VJ021 do well!!! hehehehee. we really must do Mr Tan SO PROUD. after everything with him, an entire year of FRUSTRATIONS (especially so with me haha), him always telling me not to frown, if not he'll not allow me to do things if i dont smile, (right clara), treating us, being patient and so much more. i've always taken him for granted. next year he's going to be my favourite teacher cos i dont take chinese anymore. and when i leave right, i think i will cry.

my corset will fit perfectly once i alter it. my mom's helping me alter. yay. so happy. its so damn nice. my sis says she wants to borrow it (AGAIN) she has been borrowing so many of my clothes lately RAWR later she stretches them then when i wear them they wont be fitting anymore. so frustrating.

went grocery shopping with my family yesterday!! :D :D it was so fun especially when you have a car to drive you around and your parents pay for the grocery. the whole sum amounted to $147 lolol!! not my fault!! my sis and i just got carried away and added lotsa stuff to out shopping cart. i took corn, soya bean milk, wang wang pao pao guo dong (its such a yummy drink i love it!!), cognac chocolate (and remind me not to eat any cos i took so much yesterday my throat was burning and had so much phlegm today), and alotALOT more other rubbish food. and frozen prawn trellis! mmm!! i need to find a job immediately on monday i think.

i'll be happy just the way i am. i dont need help/sympathy/whatsoever. and worse, your judging me.

baby

2006-11-03T13:28:00.000+08:00

i am looking for babysitting/tutoring jobs. anyone has younger siblings who are extremely naughty, call me! i can handle them!! :D

okay this post is to reveal the answers to the sill thingy 3 entries back. hahaha. well actuallyyyyy my maths fail, so i have 6 false statements instead of 5. so sorry!! sheesh i know i'm such a spoiler. but otherwise all should be fine. the false statements are:

4) I HATE PIGS' TROTTERS MORE THAN ANY FOOD OKAY!! haiyoo to my besties who dont know this i am so angry you know so angry!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7) I HATE PEPPER AND VINEGAR IN MY FOOD! the people who usually dine with me ought to know. but sadly, NOBODY guessed it, except ming. but it doesnt count cos. ah long story.

8) i dont have any tattoos! yay! everyone got this right!! means i'm like the pure and innocent type in all your eyes. aww!! i am! lol!

10) i have NOT tried smoking! dont dare!

14) HAHA this one is so irritating!! matthew spotted the mistake in the statement and then cheryl followed suit in the tagboard!!! argh!! u guys are right la.

15) i have not had plastic surgery done on my nose and eyes for the record!! hahahahaha, well i would love to have a higher nose bridge and more prominent double eyelids but i dont dare go under the knife for fear of side effects and other stuff. maybe in future i'd do something but i really dont know. it depends on whether i dare to or not. plastic surgery to me isn't a big issue. if u've got the money and the guts just do it. its your face and if your want a higher self esteem and a prettier face whats stopping u? i'll do it if i need it in future.

THATS ALL FOLKS! :) CLASS OUTING IS ON MONDAY THE 6TH OF NOVEMBER! KEEP U GUYS UPDATED. we're going to sentosa btw :) oh and today's chinese was horrid! haha! just pass can la! :D love everyone! later i'm going out at night seeya all.

imwa DIE

2006-11-01T21:04:00.000+08:00

haha, s f the ae. jffffffffffffff. anyone who figures that out gets like a million kisses from me i swear. yaFFFFFP.

just came home from angie's house. damn fun! she kept watching her silly taiwanese vcd serials all that crap stuff (and yes i did peep and laugh when i thought she wasnt looking) and i kept going to her kitchen to play with her dog dog (gou gou!!). the dog dog's so freaking cute. its name isnt dog dog of course, its some korean name. its like so cutesy poopy cupcake muffin beany squisy babygirl apricot face white cuddly milky baby pootsy hunny buns baby baby baby awwww mashy toots cutie pie. loved it to bits. kept rubbing its tummy and massaging the body. it seems to like it! so cuddly and cute i could spend forever playing with it!!!!!!!!! well it was after projectwork AND zihui was supposed to come along BUT she went home to sleep after her training (RAWR)! luckily angie's grandmomma sent us back and fro, so comfortable. if not i wouldnt go. angie should play with her pup more often. its like so cutie cutie baby sweet!! awww. melts my heart. took alot of pictures of it. show some time. anyway i left my specs case at angie's place so had to wear my specs home. not that i mind i really love clear vision but i'm too vain and lazy.

today was alright went for chinese (last lesson lao shi i am so gonna miss you!!). :'( i am pretty sad about it. lao shi's my favourite vjc teacher till date. she gave me such cute clips and a file for being class rep. she's just about the most sincere and loving person i've met in vjc. then she gave chocolates as usual, and a bookmark which she made herself. i love her to death. hung my bookmark on my bag! i hope she sees it someday and knows that i truly appreciate every little thing she's done for me, and the class. after chinese hung around the canteen with angie, steph and elroy. talked about everything we could possibly talk about, especially about some bastard in vjc. gross shit i never knew such people existed. sometimes girls are too weak. sometimes its not for us to say, cos no matter how many years have passed nobody still knows whether whatever happens is true/fake shit. so just let it be. life is so unpredictable and sad that sometimes i see it as predictable and i am happy just living my life not bothering about all these. whats the point? there's no point. everyone should just be selfish and live their lives and stop caring about others. haha. sorry if i sound like a bitter cynic but this is what life has taught me. anyway elroy was being so HIM today, he dared me to down my soup+milo+jelly mixture for $10 (one spoon full only). come on i'd have done it serious shit i can like buy my shoes with the extra $10. but then its so gross.. (but the $10 is like more than enough to cover anything plus that mixture was too mild to give me a stomachache) and if elroy really gave me that money i'd not be able to take it. so angie was like really willing as usual and elroy said he wants me to do it, not anyone else. i think he is a closet pervert somewhere cos he's always daring me to do such silly stuff for so much money/advantages. anyway after that we had a hard time finding a free classroom and elroy wrapped his jacket around me and disappeared and i had to walk around in the sun like some crazy person in a cold storage. found our class, we split into two groups then later we helped see steph's group. then it was then that i got tempted to go to angie's house. today we were discussing class outing on 6th nov. they said sentosa. what say clara?

projectwork tmr at 830.

sometimes i wonder why i give so much, to get nothing back at all. i ought to spend my time paying more attention to the people who love me, instead of the person i love. huge difference there loves all.

say parking lot fast and it sounds like what i'd like to say to you

happy halloween BOO!!!!!!

2006-10-31T20:31:00.000+08:00

happy halloween!! just heard from my mom this caucasian family who just moved to Singapore six months ago were reported to the police for decorating their house with creepy halloween stuff like cobwebs, skulls etc. the silly Singaporean neighbours got so disturbed they called the police. SO SILLY RIGHT!!! HAHAHAHAHA laughed my head off it is so typical of Singaporeans! today i reached home early after chinese lesson and slept till like 7 hahahaha i wont be able to sleep tonight so i should just take the time to study for chinese!

love this song to bits. thanks to mason.

Artist: Blink-182 Lyrics
Song: Stay Together For The Kids Lyrics

It's hard to wake up
When the shades have been pulled shut
This house is haunted
It's so pathetic
It makes no sense at all.
I'm ripe with things to say
The words rot and fall away.
If a stupid poem could fix this home
I'd read it every day.

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost.
It's not right

Their anger hurts my ears
Been running strong for seven years
Rather than fix the problems, they never solve them
It makes no sense at all
I see them every day
We get along so why can't they?
If this is what he wants and this is what she wants
Then why is there so much pain?

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right

So here's your holiday
Hope you enjoy it this time
You gave it all away
It was mine
So when you're dead and gone
Will you remember this night, twenty years now lost
It's not right x4

AND MY ALL TIME EMO EMO FAVOURITE, and to everyone who has ever believed in me, shown me love, taught me about life, been tolerant about my ways, helped me, guided me through my toughest times, and been such a babe to me, this is for all you besties/friends/loved ones! i love ya all ALWAYS AND FOREVER!

Artist: Good Charlotte Lyrics
Song: Always And Forever Lyrics

Always
Always and Forever
Always
Always and Forever
Sitting here and thinkin back doing time when I was young
My memories good as day
I'm listening to the dishes cling you were downstairs you would sing songs of praise and all the time we'd laugh at you and all the time that you stay true to us and I will say

Said I thank you
Will always thank you
More than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you
Theres nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you're beautiful forever
Always
Always and forever

You were my mom you were my dad the only thing I ever had was you
It's true
Even when the time got hard you were there to let us know when we get through
You showed me how to be a man
You taught me how to understand the things people do
You showed me how to love my God
You told me that not everyone knows the truth

And I thank you
Will always thank you
More than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you
Will always love you
Theres nothing I won't do to say these words to you that
You will live forever
Forever and ever
Forever and ever

Said I thank you will always thank you more than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you
There's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That I thank you will always thank you more than you would know and I could ever show
And I love you will always love you there's nothing I won't do to say these words to you
That you will live forever

xoxo happy halloween loves

maybe cos she heard that i rhyme hardcore

2006-10-30T19:17:00.001+08:00

can you keep up?
my bestie

my bestie

allllllllllllright guess what, yesterday i updated my blog TWICE. really. and the entries weren't short. cos i did matthew's thingy on here. but argh blogger is so stupid both were lost. whatever! later then redo. anyway today was fun! had chinese lesson in the morning. pleasant surprises cos
1) i thought it's from 8-11 but its actually till 10 only! :D
2) lao shi gave us chocolates!! mmmmm
well the chocolates right were really nice. they're filled with rum and a whole cherry and some thick white sugary thing which tastes like marzipan. anyway teacher passed them around but alot of people didnt want! such waste! so i ate 3 :D lolololol!! it's so me to eat so many. i think huajia knows. during chinese i always eat ALOT. hahahaha. this girl from another class passed me another box i swear i was tempted to polish all off BUT got self control!! so yummy mmmmmm!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

after chinese went to parkway with clara and huajia for lunch. was rather nice cos its good to get away from school and talk outside of school about school. i know that sentence sounds weird but it makes perfect sense to me. haha. if you know me you'd know what i'm saying. had fun talking to them. then huajia left cos of something urgent. then i left with clara. but she went back to school while i went home. after going back home to do some stuff i went back to school again (yes thank God i live in the East) for projectwork. was fine. we have so much to do but i will just chill. we've come so far. it's just the oral presentation left. just. chill. no worries. after projectwork Mr Tan was so nice as to suggest going to mac! so we went to the Siglap one. he treated as usual, but we didnt eat much. only angie ate a burger. i couldnt stomach a burger man! then i left with zihui. :) it was a day well spent i must say. class outing on 6th nov i hope :)

alright to back to whatever i've blogged yesterday. i was saying i had dinner with ming and his mom cos i went to her salon to do braids for my dance. she's such a nice person. we went to eunos after all our hair were done and then she called for lots of veggies and chicken in all forms. haha and she even asked if everything was enough. and then she paid for drinks. and then she gave me pink haircare stuff which i later dropped on the toilet floor ARGH! nvm. i forgive myself. lol. then she left and we continued eating. luckily ming kept giving me food cos i really was too paiseh. i was having butterflies in my stomach before meeting his mom la. and it didnt help that he was laughing, thinking it is very funny. i had a good time though.

then dance. haha. sunday was the comp. lots of the participants turned up with choreographers and instructors and all. so we seemed weaker. but now thinking back i think we did fine. given the time constraints and all, we really aren't that bad. but there was one part when we all had mental block. hahaha. but it was a great experience and its nice shaking hands with the other dancers and making new friends out of this entire process. and keeping fit! oh goodness thats the best part. i love dance. i'm always game to compete and play and learn.

my dad came back from China (finally!) and bought me a pillow!!! :D i know its JUST a pillow but he seldom buys things for me, he just gives me money. plus its so huggable i tore open the plastic when i pinched it under the plastic. hahaha! and then i went to my dad's bedroom and pushed the pillow through the gap at the door and wriggled it. and he saw and asked "mei is it you!" and i quickly ran away. the childish things we do when we're happy. or maybe its just me.

OKAY AND NOW FOR THE THING MATTHEW GOT ME TO DO:

One. Think of 15 short bits of interesting stuff about yourself. And they've gotta be true.

Two. Come up with 5 false statements regarding yourself, but for fun's sake keep them in the threshold of believability.

Three. Jumble them all up together and list them in any order.

Four. Post them on your blog and let people guess which the five false ones are!

Five. Get 5 others to do the same.

1. my grandfather thought i'd be a boy so he tried to wait a little longer but left this world when my mom told him i'm a girl.

2. when i was young my dad treated me like a boy.

3. i used to have constant nightmares and sleepwalk sometimes when i was in primary school.

4. i LOVE pigs' trotters!

5. i've had my first kiss.

6. i LOVE playing english chess!

7. i LOVE pepper and vinegar in my food!

8. i have a small tattoo on my hip.

9. i own less than 7 pairs of shoes.

10. i've tried smoking and quit after a month.

11. i used to adore Westlife.

12. i LOVE Britney Spears!

13. i cry ALOT at the movies.

14. currently 3 people are admiring me secretly.

15. i've had some (but very little) plastic surgery done on my eyes and nose to make myself prettier.

16. i talk to my tortoise and carry it like a baby.

17. i am the only one in my family who looks after my tortoise.

18. the first time i ever ate laksa was this year.

19. i haven't washed my hair on a daily basis since secondary 1.

20. i walk around my house naked if nobody's home.

GO FIGURE! WOULD LIKE TO HEAR WHAT U GUYS HAVE TO SAY! CHOOSE 5 WRONG STATEMENTS. LOVE ALL.

2006-10-26T22:06:00.000+08:00

1) HAHA it feels great to talk to pohtiong once again after such a long time!! he's damn cute as usual.

2) matthew wants to watch us dance. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?! because i CANT!! :O

3) Mr Tan wants to watch us dance. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT?!?!?!! because i can. he must be a closet ji go pek!! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

4) i love dance but nothing makes me more irritated than not being able to perfect the steps. tmr's full dress rehearsal. i still dont think my stomach's flat enough :( i wont be too greedy just a liiiiitle bit more toned.

5) went to zixuan's blog to see if he replied to my tag and he did, but his blog is damn off-centre i cant read what he typed. maybe he'll see this, cos i'm too lazy to tell him!

6) 10 mins ago i was talking to 3 people. 10 mins later all are GONE. mysteriously!

7) friendster so irritating. cant see my new testimonials. (but this is not a biggie!) but i dont often receive testimonials (and i wonder which stalkers keep visiting cos the numbers are always there but i dont get no testimonial) so i'm always so excited by new ones! lol!

8) went to the doc today (finally) after thinking through everything and realising i dont bloody want to miss my dance comp just cos of my dumb fever. was fine, just a normal throat infection and fever. grabbed some other pills on the way. i am such a sick girl!

9) i dont know why i am not tired! tmr is my first chinese lesson after so long of being sick. heard from Clara that the teacher wont give worksheets to those who aren't present. but i dont have an MC for yesterday cos i didnt go to the doc yesterday, and yesterday i swear i was so damn sick i cried. but after that it got much better. then this morning didnt feel too well again so didnt go. the fever just keeps coming and going. and my menstruation came. double blow. damn sick of life. if the teacher scolds me for not giving an MC then too bad i really just have to tell her i'm not lying.

10) got assigned to another council task for this saturday's university talk. and its the same old Speech Person Usher duty. RAWR!! in other words, its ushering the Speech Giver onstage and offstage when the person has to go onstage or offstage lor. cant they give me better stuff like ushering the normal people into the hall or maybe the parents? they always make me go up to stage and be those flower vases. damn tired of these typecasts. fourth time already. am i not useful enough?? and i didnt go for the briefing yesterday cos i was really sick, so i am so uncertain of what to do. if the person goes onstage, do i stay there? university talks are so boring afterall. and long. eurgh.

11) dont be too nice to me. i will take advantage!

12) thank God for everything!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! really.

13) my uncle's back from Thailand!

14) just talked to my grandmomma on the phone.

15) hehehehehe nothing else except i miss my dad! he's coming home tmr!! ba ba hui lai lo!

okay to the tagboard:

Clara: what's BS?? today we've got telepathy.. the smses!!
huijie: you blur queen you!! socialise more pls. ("v")

loves all!!! MUAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ

2006-10-24T18:57:00.000+08:00

1.When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
i hate Mr Pimple.

2. When is the next time you will have sex?
but i never even had it before!! on my wedding night i hope. heeeeeeeeehooooo

3.What's a word that rhymes with DOOR?
MORE!

4. Favorite planet?
i dont know.. jupiter sounds really inviting

5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your mobile?
my list just got cleared.

6. What is your favorite ringtone on your phone?
just sent the phone to repair so i dont have ringtones. but the one i really loved till death previously was the Glasgow Love Theme by Craig Armstrong.

7. What kinda shirt you have on?
damn embarrassing. not telling

8. Describe yourself in one phrase.
can never let go of memories?

9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
not wearing one now. not in the house

10. Bright or Dark Room?
bright

11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?
damn hot

12. If you're alone in a room with two beds, which one do you sleep on?
the one nearest to the window or wall, either one which the bed is closer to, cos i love leaning against something at the side. security reasons i guess

13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
talking online to some ...

14. What did the last text message that you received on your mobile say?
HAHA not saying.

15. Where is your letter box?
at my house gate

16. What's a word that you say a lot?
RAH

17. Last furry thing you touched?
some puppy i think. those whom owners take for walks and i just happen to walk past.

18. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
why would i do that!!

19. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed?
NONE!

20. Favorite age you have been so far?
hmmmm this is tough. i would say this year.

21. Your worst enemy?
actually, myself.

22. What is your current desktop picture?
something of a pathway filled with trees and autumn leaves.

23. What was the last thing you said to someone?
"really meh"

24. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly?
this is SO TOUGH!!!!!!! ah. hmmm to be able to fly permanently then i'd choose the flying one. if not i'd take the money!!

25. Do you like someone?
no

26. The last song you listened to?
wu ding (stop saying i am cheena i just really know how to appreciate good songs when they come along regardless of language k. right Clara?)

27.If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet?
OH NO, the thought of it makes me dead scared. but then if my sis dies i'd be kinda (okay maybe really) sad. but i'm afraid of dying and the pain! (see at least i'm not a liar who says i'll jump in front of the bullet without hesitation!) but if i dont do so i'd probably cry myself blind afterwards.

28. If you could punch one person in the face who would it be?
hahahahahahaahhahahahaha. not gonna say here.

29. What is the closest object to your left foot?
the electric plug.

okay thats the end of the absolutely boring survey, but i had no choice cos i have nothing to blog about! visited my grandmom just now. really took my mind of all the shitty stuff in life. this time i'm convinced this world is totally fucked (ABSOLUTELY), people judge you without watching what they say. stop acting like you all know me, cos you ALL dont and how often do we even meet each year who are you to judge me like that? RAWR my throat hurts and my entire body too i'm convinced to warm up AND warm down after dance. siao it fucking hurts! anyone knows where to get braids?

the old man said we'd never get out of this tangle.

2006-10-23T21:29:00.000+08:00

Tipsy - J. Kwon

2006-10-22T11:01:00.000+08:00

love this song! can just pop pop pop to it non stop! waiting for dance later.. meanwhile i have not practised my ass vibration HAHA damn lazy oh i am so lazyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy noooooooo...

ANYWAY! yesterday went shopping hee hee with my family. freaking fun. i had alot of fun man. my parents were so nice yesterday (especially so). haha! my results are AADDEE so freaking pissifying, i dont think i REALLY met my expectations after all the adding up of mid year grades and all. but nvm thankful i have no S and U! this is the stepping stone to my A Levels. i know i can do this. right now just hang loose :D ok so anyway yeah i bought so many things! but havent finish monday going to shop again at town muaha! marks&spencers have got such cute girl boxers i feel like buying the whole shop!! i am going back to buy somemore, i promise! bought white pants and a belt which came with it (quite awful i can give it away actually), a woollen sweater and boxers AND, A WHOLE LOT OF FOOD. thats all. and my mom went to buy the whole Clarins cleansing set cos she says i need it (thanks lots) but i really dont think its gonna help much. i feel so sad. really :(

ate at Chatterbox Meritus Mandarin, had like a whole lot of starters, soyabean+honeydew+honey+banana blend, and the huge nasi lemak which had prawns (damn fresh), chicken wing, fish, eggs, peanuts+ikan billis, otak! omg felt so damn fat afterwards but dont know why today i woke up my stomach is quite flat. hee hee hoo hoo! later going to dance! then meeting my family at the airport cos my daddy's flying so we're having dinner there. his flight is at 1am. i think we're having fish&co yay i looooove the calamari and prawn+pasta salad!!! yum i guess its ok to eat alot as long as the next day my stomach just miraculously disappears right? lol! i am just such a lazy bum RAH! nvm eat first think/work out later. at the most dance for like 4 hours again lor haha.

i hope my hair can grow faster so i can curl it. kinda bored of my straight hair now. and the fringe which NEVER seems to grow. oh well. its good that mason's back safe and sound AND pestering me to call for class outing. pw yesterday was fine, i didnt lose my temper whatsoever, kokjun was great (his slides and attitude.. whoa), angie was pretty serious and that is good, zihui was late (!!) but still serious la, brenda i think she is so much more... approachable and serious now. thank God for making things work, i was really pleased with yesterday's meeting. i hope we fare great. :)

to the tagboard!
cheryl: i'm damn free now except for dance+chinese+pw haha. can la can meet up this weeeeeeek. love!
clara: ;) i damn nice right!

another year older, a little bit stronger..

long time no see!!

2006-10-20T22:08:00.000+08:00

i am selling my dress at $20. any takers? i dont quite want it anymore. only worn thrice!

hello dearest cupcakeblog its been a long time since we met!

i want to buy metro bras! they're damn pretty HOOHOO!! i dont specifically mean metro, but triumph bras and pierre cardin gosh they have the prettiest things ever but must ask my mom go with me cos she'll pay then i wont have to waste my money on them. :D got soooooo many goodness!! i want to buy everything nice. plus they had quite nice g-strings and thongs and all that fancy lacy stuff. i quite liked one which had jewels on them, though a lil trashy (ok perhaps mad trashy for most here) but its pretty to look at if u wear it. anyway, had dance today!! just reached home. so fun. :D

anyway i just showed my mom and sis some of my dance moves and they said it looks very vulgar (just like my classmates say)! but if its not vulgar its boring and..... just boring!! but anyway they just dont have that kind of acceptable mindset cos the dancers weren't making a fuss out of it. anyway it was fun la! accomplished quite a lot, have each got 4 counts of 8 to choreograph by sunday! then its another practice, followed by next thur and next fri. sunday's the comp HOHO i am mad excited!! but its nerve wrecking at the same time. and now i really REALLY have to watch my diet and do stomach crunches (not that its gonna help at this point of time) cos i want to look my best in the midriff baring outfit. still hovering over the decision of pants or skirt, but i think some skirts will really flatter those moves, except the part where i have to slide under alia's legs HAHA hmmm its really funny i still laugh when i think of sliding under her legs but it makes a good move. and i love the one move which always gets me. whoever dances it well i always think that dancer is freaking sexy. but dont know how to describe also. i need to practise the butt vibrating thing EURGH but i realised the trick is to bend really low but after i climb up i'm usually too unstable to do so. ah well it all seems weird here but its really nice all right. the other girls are great too. :) after dancing went to do a lil bit (really a lil only) of gym, tried to tone my thighs and arms but didnt have the discipline too. after that went to have dinner with jiahui then went home!! after shopping at NTUC (my favourite!) heeeee hui jia lo!

well the day before i came home from school and immediately went to run on the treadmill cos i wanted to tone my thighs BUT i failed cos i gave up when i was bored running alone and went to dance. i lack the discipline to become a sports person seriously and if i ever was i'd shame all of them. anyway! i feel like running now i think when i have the time i ought to use my treadmill more cos i need firm thighs EURGH!! i really really do i hate my thighs RAH! tmr going to school for my DEAREST pw group's OP! hope we'll do fine. i hope nobody expects me to memorise everything cos, well, i just got home and am tired from dancing and want to sleep :( will do fine tmr la i guess, my part needs little memorising. after pw im going home to bathe then going out with my family!! been such a long while since i went out with them.. daddy's flying off to Shanghai this sunday. :( + :) haha cos i will miss him but cos i get more freedom and can sleep with my mom in the same room. ah well! anyway yes shopping tmr hoho i will squeeze my parents dry! then sunday dance.. then monday my mom's bringing me out to shop cos she says its been a long while! will squeeze her dry too i even told her "we go into the shop and buy what i want u just pay can already ok?" haha but since she intends to bring me shopping it should mean that right. if i see that pair of Adidas shoes it is fate that i should buy them!

need to also look out for a dance skirt and.. stuff. lazy to list down. anyway there's this huge pimple on my cheek which never seems to go away feel like killing someone. oh i just sent my phone for repair cos the screen wont show and guess what that guy huh, the next day i went to collect it he said i need to get like some Singtel stamp like wth? the day before i went to send it to repair the girl didnt say anything. how frustrating. i was freaking pissed cos i had alot of difficulty using my mom's and sis' phones and i desperately needed ALL my contacts but all those in my sim card were the ones from damn long ago like secondary school. hell you dont know how important new contacts are in jc. and so i was pissed and i scolded that guy and he gave in and i got my phone back. another service person said in a nice tone, "dont be pissed. i had a worse day than u, trust me." my heart went out to her and i immediately regretted it. i mean i'm just a student and i'm so selfish (BUT that guy was damn pissy RAH) and sometimes the things i say really hurt people, especially the people i always am with, my classmates/family etc. i'm getting real pissy to be around with so please please forgive me. its hard to cos i always apologize but i never change cos my temperament is like so bad nowadays i always lose it before i remember to hold back. i'm really sorry ESP my pw groupmates. only one person from my group reads this though. you see now i'm saying sorry; tmr i'll go get pissy about things again wanna bet? i'm such a...... bitch. i really am RAH!!!

i miss Mrs Chan. today's farewell assembly was kinda sad though everyone seemed happy. steph was the emcee and she did a terrific job though some parts were kinda funny. love her voice and her pronunciation, dont know why. today also presented Mrs Chan with my drawing on behalf of the class. damn paiseh it was just plain A4 size paper which i didnt have the chance to pass to any student councillor so i just kept it with me. and she was like joking about Mr Tan having like fans. thats mad absurd cos i NEVER heard of it- Mr Tan IS NOT someone people would want to idolise so yeah. but Mrs Chan is so nice la i really will miss her. today she also gave us a full day off from lessons. the last full day im sure :(

received all my results already!! thankfully i passed my GP! :D got back the first part of my elit paper (Great Expectations) today and i was really quite happy. it was the highest i ever got forany elit test/assignment/shit. haha. jeffery lim marked it. love him haha. then came unseen, which was marked by Mrs Christine Ang, then it wasnt as good but still i was happy. she was so freaking sarcastic she said "u have some insightful ideas (about time)" if u dont notice where the sarcasm lies, i think you are blind. thats a pretty encouraging thing to tell me. with all the shitty scares about promos results now... RAH. but still she's a good elit teacher can i cannot deny that, plus she's quite nice if u talk about personal things like family3 haha. so.. oh well! then got my last bit, (The Great Gatsby) and that bloody shit piece of work pulled my C to a D RAH feel like killing someone. Mr Ng marked that. but he's nice i guess so.. wont say a word. shush. okay! thats all to update i guess. love all. oh and econs i passed overall THANK GOD! i didnt pass my midyears and at the rate my classmates (more than half- its crazy) have to sit for the re-test... i really have to thank like someone for looking over me. i mean its mad absurd that so many people cant pass econs! it cant be SO bad right?! sighs. to all my classmates retaking any paper at all i really hope u guys do well and nobody retains. 06a15 :)

chinese AO levels coming but i dont have the mind to study. i'm bored of life! only have dance to look forward to. then when its over, its over. :( i have to rent dvds and while my life away. love all.

steph on the tagboard: thats fantastic news. really.

thank you God (no seriously) /EDITED

2006-10-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

EDITED! haha i think this pic is very funny.

AAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH euphoria THIS IS EUPHORIA AT ITS VERY BEST! WRITTEN REPORT DUE TMR, THE FINAL FINAL LAST-MINUTE MADNESS TONIGHT! to projectfuckingwork: so long farewell i need to say goodbye! :D

yayyyyyyyyyyyyyy but the thing is, now i cant bloody save my written report RAWR. my dad AH he always has to spoil things RAWR long story i have to wait for him to come home before i can scold him for changing the computer settings RAWR! (i sound like a crazed sex kitten saying RAWR but i am really angry RAWR). and while waiting for my dad to come home i must blog to spend time. not gonna study for tmr's chinese test i'm in no mood to and there's like 5-worksheet assignments to complete sorry hor no time lao shi HAHA i feel so guilty aiyah! shouldnt la i bet clara and steph aint gonna do it so relaxxxxxxxing lijia!

today got back 2 results. chinese (cant believe it still hahahahahaha) i got A, and maths as well. well i really cant bloody believe it someone kick me or something. and for chinese i really cant believe i topped the class i got 27/30 for zuo wen?!?!?!?! i really dont think i deserve such a good grade. seriously. i am not lying. i dont deserve this. my lao shi also hinted that the teacher was very lenient and its kinda based on luck (haha! humph!). she gave me a present which said "lijia, jiayou!" (writing paper AGAIN LOL!) freaking funny. when i received it i was like "thank God!" before i thanked her. kinda rude now thinking back but never in my wildest dreams i thought i'd get this A. maths, on the other hand was another unbelievable thing. well maybe not really cos i've practised till i knew i could score to pass but.. wow. thank you God, my family, my friends and my tuition teacher! and my passion has been reignited again.. those good ol' Amaths A1 days! this has really given me hope. i dont know who to thank for everything. :)

but on the downside, i did not pass my GP essay. haha. i was so disappointed i thought i could cry. thank God jiahui was beside me and she said stuff which really made sense to me. like my methods are all wrong. i was so bitter at the teacher for giving me such a shitty grade and just like my chinese, never in my wildest dreams i ever thought i'd fail GP so bad. if it were chinese then yeah maybe but GP?! isn't GP english? someone tell me. i topped my sec4 class in english and got A1 for O Level so how can this happen??!?! english has always been like my pride and joy during the sec4 days and i hate to say that i'm really utterly remarkably extremely fucking sad about this. i'm sorry for unleashing that emo in me now but (i am not lying about this, and i do not want your sympathy.), this means alot to me. and jiahui and i played hang man during GP and i was freaking upset i set my theme as "emotion" and it was
_ _ _ _ _ _ _, _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _.

fucking disappointed.

i really was at that moment. okay sorry for subjecting my readers (i know u guys read so thanks) to such emo-blogging, i really just had to say everything. or i'd end up killing everyone, over something as fucked up as my GP grades. if i cannot promote cos of my GP, i am going straight to poly. thank God Mr Teo called me back to express interest in going through my script. it shows (hopefully?) that he believes in me? i dont know but i really was pretty touched cos he approached me to want to do this for me. sighs.. so bloody thankful you have no idea.

yeah anyway today after chinese had tsd workshop for all but 10min haha. Mr Lofthouse is recuperating from his operation i guess and Mr Young should be busy marking exam scripts/attending lessons. anyway its a good thing cos i had (or rather we ALL had) pw to rush. we did silly warm ups and some started dancing haha.! i left to meet ihui, we went to my place to slog. its crazy but at least i know our work isn't (shouldn't be?) mad trashy like before. finished at my place around 630, left for bedok and went to bind everything. cost $8.30 wtf. my mom can do it for free. nvm no time, the shopowner was obviously cashing in on our desperation. nvm cheapo i can donate that money to her really. ---------went to have dinner without informing my mom oops! was really quite good the food but i cant finish it as usual. and oh i didnt know that milk tea was teh peng in coffee shops so i saw this woman drinking it and it looked damn nice so when the guy came i was like "uncle i want nai cha" HAHA and he was like "HUH?! what nai cha" thankfully there was zihui beside me to say its teh peng. i think coffeeshops ought to upgrade and call those nai cha cos it just sounds better. i've never drank something so ridiculously named as teh peng and today, is my first time hoo hoo!

reached home around 8+, watched so you think you can dance2, sighs so sad to see people cry when they cant make it. i think if such stuff happens to me i'd cry too, on national tv and bawl like a baby. but they dance so fabulously i'd never make it there. but they really shouldnt be upset cos they're so darn good!! i mean dont compare them with the people who got in. they're good enough to be featured so they really shouldn't be upset. okay i know people console them by saying "u're so good dont be sad" and this is probably the two hundred millionth time they've heard this but. its true. but it doesnt help hearing such nondescript comments la. but really la. argh dont know what im saying i'm getting sleepy hee night night!
oh tagboard replies hmmmm.

clara: your time will come girl. just strive towards better grades and they will come. :) anyway our combi's different so u cant compare like that. cheer up, we have the A's to conquer still alright. i wont do well for tsd, elit and econs. i know it. anyway hello just heard from zihui you did well for geog!!!

zihui: aww me too la me too!!! :) MUAZ!!

huijie: i miss you too three four. and pau.

love all! i am ever so grateful for everyone and everything. tmr's doomsday though. i dont want my econs/tsd/elit papers back.

aww

2006-10-14T22:16:00.000+08:00

me 16th birthday.
cartellll
caught in the act by angela babe

hi! today was vjc open house. i wont blog much cos i'm rushing WR (yeah kiss my ass) so..... the best thing i did today was the flying fox! save for the fact that dennis saw kept making fun of me and saying stuff like "oh the bolt's not tight" and "i will use the rusty chain when your turn comes". haha, scared the shit out of me i never knew i was so brave cos first u have to climb this really tall and long ladder oh gosh i was so afraid! never knew i had to climb to get there; i suspect i have no common sense at all cos i never ever wondered how the hell people got to the rope, i only enjoyed watching people slide down haha and thought it'd be so fun! so today i got the shock of my life and was rEALLY nervous about leaping off from the height oh goodness me still cant believe i did it!! Mr Seet was really mean too, he kept taunting jiahui and i (not like jiahui's scared she's helluva brave girl) and especially making fun of my lack of knowledge about such stuff. i was shocked when he said the person might just fall from the rope i was like "huh?!?!?! can we not do this hahahahahahahhaha but of cos i did it!! hoohoo felt really nice swinging in mid air and it was such a cheap thrill! the ODAC people were so nice too especially zihui's friend aww she kept asking me if it was fun while she undid my that thing. that do u call it?

keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
HEY
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
for rockcliminbing all those stuff
zihui *303KB* says:
is der any difference between convience , elderly friendly or usefulness
zihui *303KB* says:
n praticality?
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
the thing u wrap arnd ur crotch whats it called?
zihui *303KB* says:
harness
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
usefulness=practicality
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
convenience is a subset of elderly friendly.
keira danielllllllllllllllle ; only for my nigger says:
YEAH THX!
zihui *303KB* says:
lol

YES, that was exactly what i wanted to call it; a harness! she undid my harness and was so nice la walao! the entire experience was great la. after that dennis saw saw me in the canteen and he was like "did u love the flying fox?" and i gave him a really weak smile and he said the dumbest thing ever: "i know you love me la" haha i think he is dizzy from being situated at such great heights for too long.! btw I REALLY really admire those people who arent afraid of heights especially the ODAC people. oh BRAVO!! :D

today i screwed up my mono as expected cos i wasnt feeling it, too nervous! but its okay its already over heheheheheh well but i still have to say sorry to the tsd people: my mono may have shown the sec4s the very unprofessional side to the subject and i am extremely sorry for it. i just wasnt feeling it and rushed through like mad. sorry.

to clara and matt on the tagboard: thank you loveya!

i just want to say, its great knowing that people care :) zihui thanks so much for being in my group. clara you MUST press on!! :) love my dearest girls as well + babe + ahming.

TODAY BLOGGER IS SURPRISINGLY NICE TO ME

2006-10-13T20:04:00.000+08:00

yay.. dont we all love pictures. this was a few days ago. aww i love ya'll. anyway all pictures can click to enlarge and when u click them they're really pretty big!

haha this was during marcus' 21st and i was really full and looking at the food when someone took my picture. looks evil and inhuman.

hehehe.. class outing and fooling around with jiahui.

see the strands that keep falling out and poking my eyes EURGH this is my haw par girl.

this is my class! i know its damn small though sorry haha i'm 4th from the right. i quite like this pic.

well yesterday was really funny. alia, shairah and fatin were online with me and we signed up for this Chingay hiphop competition and were really mixed up about the rules and regulations and just practically everything. today's the deadline HOHO but i'm sure we submitted the application. so exciting. i really cant wait!! dancing hoohoo! dancing gives people the kind of high you can never achieve just by acting or other kinds of performing arts.. or probably its just me cos clara and bee think that i look very vulgar when i dance HAHA. i dont know why la. anyway i think our group name's really funny though. nvm, we shall see!! winners get to perform at next year's Chingay!

came online to meet zihui and the dancers for meetings but zihui i suspect, has dozed off behind her screen and the dancers arent here yet. i really really hate pw, which i really have to REDO after this. and then i havent really prepared for my acting tmr oh gosh i'm really dead. today when matthew/muthu/jason asked me to show them i almost died worried cos it dawned upon me that open house, is, tmr. TONIGHT. i really must start or i'll never get through tmr. cant get into bloody character rah. its weird how promos are over yet i still feel stressed.

anyway i think i ought to talk about my day. today i went to school lor. for farewell assemly. actually i never did think much about farewell assembly till yesterday when i was in school doing pw and i saw kai and saiful. and they were really friendly and all.. especially saiful HAHA he was damn funny when he smiled and waved lol! these are the seniors i've spent the most time with in vjc but they're going and i dont feel a thing? actually maybe i do, but the sadness hasnt surfaced yet. or maybe im really too busy to have such feelings. either way i guess. how sad. then after farewell assembly we had this security seminar OMG total waste of time you know what i did in the performance theatre? i actually counted the number of eye candy i have in vjc. hahahaha! well and i've come to a grand total of 3. BUT voila voila voila ALL ARE ATTACHED. see the rate these people are being snapped up, so frustrating! rah! the good guys are all taken. but its okay. eye candy shall only remain as eye candy. and i'm really darn glad i've got 3 to look at in school everyday cos if not its gonna get so boring. oh anyway i started this eye candy thing today when the security seminar guy said "vjc has the most goodlooking people" and everyone was laughing at how untrue it is so i decided to see for myself.

i've got nothing to blog about. except oh today i found out Mrs Chan vjc's principal is leaving. i really like her. sighs. she's so nice la! and we had free icecream :)

just like a star across my sky...

2006-10-12T11:03:00.000+08:00

like a star by corinne bailey rae

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands
Only to love you

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

You've got this look I can't describe
You make me feel I'm alive
When everything else is a fake
Without a doubt you're by my side
Heaven has been way too long
Can't find the words to write this song
Oh your love

Still I wonder why it is
I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind, yeah
Da da da da da da da
Da da da da da da da

I have come to understand the way it is
Its not a secret anymore
Cos we've been through that before
From tonight I know that you're the only one
I've been confused and in the dark
Now I understand
Oooh oooh
I wonder why it is I don't argue like this
With anyone but you
I wonder why it is
I won't let my guard down
For anyone but you
You do it all the time
Blowing out my mind

Just like a star across my sky
Just like an angel of the page
You have appeared to my life
Feel like I'll never be the same
Just like a song in my heart
Just like oil on my hands

i really love this song.. everyone's got to listen to it. it's so lovely.
ooh you do it all the time.. blowing out my mind..

:(

2006-10-12T09:12:00.000+08:00

da jia hao. just came back from school. its only 9am though. well it was just zihui, Mr Tan and me. projectwork. how grosssssssssssssssssssssss i feel extremely demoralised (oh i really do!!) and zihui always tells me to chill but i cant. oh i feel sooooo badddddddddddddddddddd i really do. i feel extremely lousy now. our projectwork is going to hit a D, at best a C and its all my fault.

sighs RAHRAHRAH i feel like sleeping. very tired, dont know why. but i have to complete the WR edition before i ever feel at ease. then probably return back to school later for council open house stuff (though im really in no mood to). i just want to complete the WR then go to bed. until samuel calls and says they need help. then maybe i might drag myself out of the house. maybe.

and my hair's kinda kinky today cos i slept last night without waiting for it to dry. it always happens when i sleep too early, and i hate my hair like that! today's impossibly wrong. my entire day. eurgh.

yesterday i went to school at 10 i think. supposed to talk to Mr Tan about WR, then he said we ought to do the most final thing and hand it in. so zihui came to my house and we did it and then took a cab back to school to hand it in. but so what? it still isnt up to standard today. FFFFFFFFF. and today my dad drove so recklessly in the morning i swore i almost felt like running out of the car. its so dangerous and he keeps thinking that it isnt and that time is everything. time is definitely NOT everything when u lose your life okay?! ........RAHBLAHFFFF they didnt have my top in blue like i wanted at parkway yesterday (so sad!!) but zihui says its too expensive anyway. so i went to meet ahming and zihui went her way too.

well i was an hour late when i met ahming but that boy's so nice he wasnt like angry he just gave me dulan face for 5secs then he carried my heavy bag for me and even refused to let me take over when he said it made him look horrible hahaha. we then went to this really hot (as in warm) place to have lunch, and he kept giving me the beef which he said i really should try but it was soso only really. i thought my beef balls were nicer. i finally told him why i quarrelled with my mom and sis, and he said he pities my mom. he doesnt get the full picture i think. then we went to the library where he didnt really research on anything much, and left. lots of excitement on the way back (him, not me) but i understand cos if it were me i'd be excited too. he then went to meet kt, but i didnt want to cos i thought i should spend some time at home. i've been home so late these days. it now feels like my house is just a roof over my head, nothing more. and i dont want this to be a habit. ahming thinks i am stupid. but i am not.

oh did i blog about the outing with my dearest girls? i think i didnt. that night dont know who said want to come online then never send us the pictures LOR!! hahaha well it was fun la but i kept stoning really, dont know why either. i just zoned out whenever i sat down. went to orchard, watched little miss sunshine due to the recommendation by my uncle and the reviews but hmmm i felt it was too shallow. correct me if im wrong but i really felt that it wasan unbelievable plot. the themes were fine i felt, sometimes touching yes but then overall i didnt really like it that much. but its a different kind of film which does provoke your thoughts. for the pictures just go to cheryl's blog haha im too lazy to get the pics from her to update.

i dont feel like going on anymore but i just want to say i love my friends. <3 blogger just wont load my pictures eurgh

today's pictures

2006-10-10T00:23:00.000+08:00

damn i really hope the pictures can load, but i really doubt so. so meanwhile i realised i forgot to reply to the tags, and i will do it now:

angela: we both look like crap in the photo. really. i hate it too, no kidding. i really miss ya babe. hope u'll be well soon enough, and i just realised this saturday we cant meet cos its vj's open house :( take care please.

huijie: u know i loveya too.

clara: HAHA, you know why and i know why! had quite a fun time (though am really tired) today. we're one step closer to getting the class bonded, fellow ct rep! :)

well blogger's really unwilling to load my photos. another time peeps. toodles.

and i will try to fix you

2006-10-09T23:17:00.000+08:00

hi everyone. i'm so tired but my hair's not dry so i'll just blog till its dry so i can go to bed. smells so good. i love it. i mean my hair.

so so so, today was class outing. went pretty fine, i'm really tired so wont be upbeat about the whole event. jason went MIA, feel like murdering him. angie said she tried to contact him but he wasnt contactable. i seriously hate it when people dont reply to my smses. THINK MY SMSES AND TIME FREE IS IT?!?! SERIOUSLY. and if i dont reply, it really is cos i'm too close to u or that i read the message very late after it being sent. not saying jason only. generally to everyone. really, nothing pisses me off more than that. try it when i'm on a pissy mood and see what u'll get.

i think i'm tired so i'm getting irritable. a sleepy girl is an angry girl. haha. still remember how rimmel knows i always get sleepy around 10+ and on holidays all activities after 10+ i'll join so reluctantly. unless its swimming. i really love swimming. i'd die if there wasn't such a thing in this world as a swimming pool. i think i should swim tmr. before meeting the girls.. but maybe i'll have to return to school for projectbloodywork, it all depends on Mr Tan. he says he'll sms me tmr. sian its like waiting so indefinitely. i mean tmr he says go means i go?! so.... irritating. then all my plans are going to turn upside down. anyway council doesnt need me for open house anymore. the president said i'd be important but i insisted on putting tsd first so now there's nothing anymore. i feel relieved but upset. got this feeling i let go another one of those big stuff u can impress people with, like emcee-ing or some other stuff (cos they always typecast me as such..) yeah too tired to explain.

anyway i dont have that job anymore so, ah well. yesterday went out with ming and kt. was quite alright, quite fun sometimes. only that i cant understand cantonese, and i dont see whats up with so much vulgarities. but it was quite funny at times, i laughed to myself when things were dumb, but they didnt know. oh i saw this really gorgeous pair of adidas shoes. which i really liked the minute i lay my eyes on them. and the boys tried to psycho me into trying and subsequently, buying. but its just not me to spend so much on a pair of shoes. i have better ways to spend my money like saving it up to feed my pet bunny when my uncle buys it for me. its just like saving up to support a child. plus if i buy that pair of shoes (which are really hard at the edges so i doubt they'd be comfy) i'd have to walk fashionably BUT painfully. so there's really no point. i told jiahui about it, and she agreed it wont be comfy. well if she said it was gorgeous too i might consider getting it but girls know girls best. went to tangs afterwards to look for stuff but there are NOTHING to be bought, watched miami vice and got caught by my cousin who gave me this knowing look, ate meesiam (me only though) and later beef noodles and then reached home totally full and tired. ming said his food was really good and kept repeating its name at the mrt station. i thought it was really cute. haha. then he sent me home and at the mrt station there were lots of army boys. i dont know what i said that for. probably am too tired.

so fast forward to today, met jiahui early at 1115 then made our way to the supposed "asian civilisation museum" to check out the japanese exhibition but it kinda moved and we got really mad. so we forgot all about the museum and shopped around raffles, which was utterly boring. i suspect we only have fun shopping at night cos we're more high then. and then there's the crowd and all. i dont know what i'm saying i'm too tired haha. umm so we met up with classmates, went to watch you, me and dupree WHICH I THINK WAS NOT A WASTE OF MONEY NOR TIME SERIOUSLY, despite how predictable and idiot-proof the plot was, it still managed to retain my attention and i really liked it! i really did! i thought it was a great movie. i think i'm under a spell cos i usually turn my noses up to such films, like you know... those really dumb chick flicks. its the best chick flick i've caught i think. go watch it everyone. really. kate hudson's pretty! and i like matt dilon, quite hot though not thAT hot. hot = tom welling. he's REALLY REALLY the hottest of all. even johnny depp dont match haha now i am being extremely shallow here hmmm. i love his eyes and the intense stare though i agree that sometimes he overdoes it but when he does it it never fails to get me. heeeeee yeah after the movie (lets get back on track hmmm) we went to swensens, then moved to fish&co. which was much better. had dinner and zihui and i left, cos i thought i would be having council meeting tmr, but now i'm no longer needed. we took the same bus home and talked about projectbloodywork, the worst thing on earth. written report is due by next tuesday i cant bloody believe it.

came home tonight to find my uncle at my house gate. stopped to chat, havent seen him for kinda long! he came to deliver my sis' present cos her birthday is tmr. talked for like more than 5min before i said a very rash "bye" cos i was tired and i saw my mom and sis standing at the gate HAHA it was a funny sight really. he bought this gorgeous puma watch for my sis.. the one which caught my eye when i was reading a magazine.. i really like it, my uncle has good taste, just like me! really!! i'm so similar to him.. we're both tall and thick skinned and good looking (HAHA or so he always says he is and or so my parents always say so) and clever (THIS IS TRUE MAN) and spendthrifts (my family always says this is the most true). and the shirt which i chose for his birthday last year.. he said its his style. so where do our differences lie? anyway i really did get a gift for my sis cos my unclesaid i ought to. jiahui said i'm damn nice to my sis waha obviously so after what she's done to me i'm still like compassionate? and the gift wasnt cheap (not in my uncle's standards very obviously hmmm) but i know its something she'd like. cos she's the gross type. HAHA. no la. she then said a very embarrassing/awkward "thanks for your gift" to me. to which i giggled, but would never let my emotions show, so i hid my giggly face behind my newspapers. haha. i know its stupid. i cant help it. i mean sometimes u just feel like all those little quarrels/arguements are damn juvenile. i dont know.

some random thoughts:
i need to start researching on anything and everything.
i really need my hair to grow, especially my fringe cos even when i pin it up it keeps falling down and it irritates my eyes ALOT, i feel there's something perpetually stuck in my right eye EURGH
i love my friends.

i'm back on earth

2006-10-07T12:08:00.000+08:00

huijie and i haha! that was like sec4.

cheryl and i in the AHS canteen! sec4 also i think.
now in jc1, zihui, bee and i in elit class hahaha.
cant believe this is me. angela's earring looks like magic. i looked sideways cos the man moved suddenly and i didnt want him to think we were idiots lol! my nose like non-existent.
rimmel and i! at marina mandarin dinner.

haha, some old photos i decided to post for fun. not very flattering some, lol.

haha clara on the tagboard: yes i get it. but i've just come to realise that the tsd people are always not around when Mr Tan wants to treat them/us! but its not like Mr Tan can afford to re-treat (not retreat lol) them again, u're right. yeah. sorry tsd people! Mr Tan isnt going to treat/subsidise this monday. we'll all just have to choose a place within budget :) is fish&co alright for all? tag please. must get this done so we can book.

ah well! so yesterday marked the end of my promos!! :D so so happy. but yet there's this feeling like i'm not going to do so well which is bringing my upbeat mood down. a little. and i still have to memorise my monologue by this saturday i think i can just die really i hate memorising things, i cant do it! and then there's still projectbloodywork GAH F. and then there's still a million and one chinese tests awaiting when school really starts on next next monday. WHAT THE HELL, WHERE HAS ALL MY TIME GONE! nevermind, at least there's still monday to thursday this week to really recharge and shop like mad but sigh, its so temporial. class outing on monday, meeting my dear girls on tuesday, wednesday and thursday left empty, during which i still think i ought to clear some projectbloodywork stuff, and then maybe meet up with jiahui and angela or zihui etc. so many people to meet, so little time! still got others i have not listed. ah.

anyway yesterday was really fun hahaha! chinese promos in the morning, my ex-crush sat beside me!! well, for a few minutes only. in the exam hall and he injured his foot while playing soccer. so we just like chatted a little then he had to move cos he had to sit with his class. well coincidentally today is his birthday and i'm supposed to be at city hall to celebrate it with some other friends but ah haha too lazy and tired. i'll just sms or something. then chinese ended, hoho, went home, bathed changed i even had time to take a quick nap! then met jiahui at orchard- far east to be exact cos she had dental. then we walked around for about like 15mins only cos it was really boring there. then we went on our hunt HOHO super fun! our hunt lasted till like the end of the day. actually not really. we stopped at 6 then went to city hall area to walk around. bought my leggings (finally!) and my MAC stuff goodness orgasssssssssmic! our feet were killing us cos our footwear were, well, killers to be exact. we almost died. thank God chenggui came to fetch us after everything! was quite late, so my family was already seated in the living room "celebrating" mooncake festival haha! kinda fun and i tell you oh no the haze is really REALLY, really, BAD!!!! i feel so sad for the environment. we're all gonna die someday at this rate we're bullying the environment! but thats okay. :) i mean the dying part, not the bullying environment part. life's so utterly boring sometimes, i wouldnt mind making an excursion into the other world. maybe i'd make nice friends there and maybe they have gorgeous leggings and thir own MAC! hoohoo. yesterday was fun mostly cos of our dumb jokes and all though. really crazy and funny.!

by the way saw ming royce and kt yesterday haha. didnt stop to talk cos, well, just didnt haha. yesterday was really weird though, cos there was this modelling agency people at orchard mrt as usual and they asked me if i was singaporean. why, of course i am! (dont be cheated by them they're like a scam and even the ugly people also kena cheated! its in the newspapers). then while walking towards centrepoint this woman who was just like any other person, she's just a commuter, like walking with the flow, not stationed at any place, plus she looked like she's in her 40s. she asked me so suddenly if i was local and asked me if i wanted to be a model. it was scary cos she was standing beside me for so long, then she asked me in a creepy way. then after i said no thanks, she walked REALLY fast away. this is a really weird world... and i'm very sure i look local. though i think my face has changed over the years.. i dont know why, but sometimes i look into the mirror and i never thought i looked like that. my face just keeps changing i feel. its weird. its so.. not me. i feel detached from my face and body sometimes. i dont know.!

well yeah.. that was how i spent my day. my feet are bleeding!! :( my daddy went to repair my shoes for me see, so now they're really loose and the rough edges will scratch against my skin when i walk. it feels uncomfy. but my dad went to repair it for me so nicely i ought to wear it more. its so clean now! the guy polished it for me. i want to curl curl curl my hair and i want my dumb dumb dumb fringe to faster FASTER grow out now NOW. haha hows that for a repetitive sentence! i really cant memorise my monologue laaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa and draw freckles on my face and act so ugly again! i'm just not into it i cant get into character by this saturday!!!!! sighs. my sis' birthday is coming but i just have no bloody plans to get her something haha. marcus' 21st birthday celebration later at night. cant wait.

i looove bellydancer! angela get well soon! EVERYONE RELAX, PROMOS ARE OVER let your hair down :D

so bored!

2006-10-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

came online after studying some maths, which was torturous really. im not tired but i dont feel like studying. with some luck i might pass tmr. but i dont really care haha. lost all that passion i had for maths back then. how stifling, jc.

oh and our class dinner is confirm on monday. we'll meet in the afternoon, undecided timing yet. once again, each one come up with one venue to go k. okay not really in the mood to blog so i'll just reply to the tags, which i forgot to in my last entry. i'm not tired.

zihui: i dont mind u flooding my tagboard really, its better than nobody tagging HAHA! yeah the lit paper was horrigible at its most horrigible. like fuck it man??!?! i see people queueing to take your place already. dont regret :D

bryan: really? i'll call u or something tmr. KEEP IT FREE FOR ME PLS :)

huijie: yah those two pigs. haha! i love showing u my clothes cos i know the response from u is always positive lol! loveya all the way girl.

steph: u're really an english sua ku. lol did u know Ding Tai Fung has better xiao long baos?!?!?! crystal jade is LOUSY!

i know people might want to slap me if i say this but: i really want to curl my hair.

i am the cause,
i am a stockpile of chemical toys,
my body
is a deadly gadget,
i reach out on love,
my hands are guns,
my good intentions are completely lethal.

SCREAM

2006-10-03T22:01:00.000+08:00

hey. feeling off now, dont know whats wrong! ah well. had two really grotesque papers today (haha). elit in the morning and tsd in the afternoon. felt totally brainwashed after, given the 3 hour paper and then a 2 hour break and then another (freaking daunting if u ask me) 3 hour paper. my brains are totally screwed, my heart feels tired, my legs and hands are lazy to move. i feel like i cannot move or love anymore. i hate exams. thank God the really tiring ones are over. left maths on thursday which means i have tmr off to study, plus chinese (dumb shit) on friday which i promised lao shi i would study hoho im sure i would i mean i really will kill myself if i find out i fail and have to attend chinese lessons during january and febuary next year when i have my tsd prelims and probably cheerleading (YAY).

just came back after gallavanting with jiahui at *GASP* tampines mall. been ages like almost a year since i visited that place and its so nostalgic now. like all the sec1,2,3 days we spent hanging around there, so lifeless. now want to hang around also no time. i dont know if its a good or bad thing cos too much of hanging around is detrimental too. its like, so ahlian! glad i've grown out of that but sad that time doesnt wait for me to really grow out of such things. it literally forces me to grow up and i hate that. i hate time. today brought 2 nissin tomyam seafood cupnoodles to school!! to eat with jiahui :D its our favourite but the bookshop has sadly run out of stock and has not replaced it for long so i thought i'd bring it and surprise her since my dad bought. after the elit exam we sat around the wooden benches with tim to eat and tim the poor boy was really stressed up about tsd absurd essay haha! he kept asking silly questions which i didnt know how to tell him were REALLY ABSURD (HAHA HE HIT THE NAIL ON ITS HEAD! the questions were based on absurd theatre!). ah well my sis is acting like a really fucked up bitch now! say hello all to the dumbest shit residing in my clean home.

oh yeah btw it was really fun hanging around tampines and we went home quite late after going for some *free stuff* hahahahaha uber cool we have arranged another date on thursday hoo hoo!! so fun. was really fun and all la. yesterday chenggui drove us in his car, how convenient too. and while i dont have a bf i'm still entitled to free rides haha. until university probably cos i dont see any potential vjc boys right now. kinda boring. marcus' 21st birthday this saturday!! i cant wait :D havent gotten any gift though. sighs. friday after school probably. if anyone's free cos most are occupied BOOHOO.

oh and A15, FRIDAY'S DINNER IS CANCELLED COS THE ART PEOPLE NEED PREPARATION TIME FOR THEIR EXAM ON MONDAY. yeah so we've changed it to monday (our marking day and the art students' paper day) so we can maybe even catch a movie or stuff if we're early. sounds better if you ask me. meanwhile each one come up with a place to dine at okay. anyway Mr Tan cant make it on friday means no treat. so monday's better. lol. much love all.

i'm bored of life
SO BORED OF LIFE

HOHO

2006-09-29T21:38:00.000+08:00

HI EVERYBODY!! HI!! :D

hahahahahahaha, that was such a funny start. i actually laughed. okay maybe u readers migt beg to differ hmmm. k lets start man alllllllllrighty!! well today I DID NOTHING HAHA. aiyah im just super unproductive i think i should just quit school and become like a hairdresser or something. really. i cant get ANYTHING into my bird brain (LOL) and i think i'd be better off earning money now than wasting my parents' money studying in this shittyfied education system. really! actually i dont mind weaving friendship bracelets as a job, or just doing relaxing work like being a service-girl like those at service counters. thats quite mechanical and fun. like u just go to work everyday and put on a fake smile on your face and serve customers. and then your day ends, you go back home and tmr starts all over again and then u get paid at the end of the month!! sighs. but then what happens is u'll forever be stuck to that job. and thats kinda sad cos i can be quite fickle about stuff like that. like jobs, yeah.

oh oh! today while i was reading some tsd notes my mind wandered off and drifted away to clothes and i suddenly thought of buying a short dress! but i dont want a typical spaghetti/tube one which every ahlian on the street possibly owns. so i thought of cutting up my black top to make it into a skirt and combining it with another black top (which costs $69 so i'd be damned if i sew them wrongly) to create a dress!! both are of lycra material i think, so it should be safe to wear both together. hoo hoo and the best thing is that im sewing it myself so heh heh the skirt can be any length i want! if i let my mom sew it she'd probably make it ultra long which totally defeats the purpose of my dress!! i mean yeah, it wont be nice (not that i want people to stare up my arse on escalators). so SEWING STARTS ATER PROMOS HOHO cant wait! love dresses! actually u dont have to keep buying clothes if u run out of pieces to wear. just reinvent them; its SO much cheaper and more fun! if anyone needs help/advice i could give some; before you destroy your clothings! anyway some clothes of mine i really cant think of how to reinvent them so i'll probably sell them (SOON I HOPE), at flea markets, ah its a lot of work and so very tedious. after promos yah.

and hmmm today my parents and sis went to have buffet breakfast at some hotel lounge. how gross lol. i mean, yeah yeah whatever haha! my dad called me the night before to ask me if i wanted but im not on talking terms with my mom and sis so half the time i'd probably be sms-ing or playing with my food. waste time. might as well sleep at home. so thats what i did. and woke up and went to siglap to have lunch ALONE! which is quite fun sometimes, cos its all peaceful and serene at the siglap area, which i really like. its the kind of place i always think of the first when i need to chill. i mean the sand on the sidewalks (haha!), the trees (i know u must be thinking where the hell in sg doesnt have trees BUT the trees at siglap ARE DIFFERENT!!), the cafes. ah its just so lovely that place. i must bring someone there with me next time. someone appreciative of the place. which means i have to find haha. oh maybe zihui. i think she's the only one who understands my appreciation of places. RIGHT>!?! HAHA LOOK WHAT I JUST FOUND FROM ZIHUI'S BLOG:

"when e going gets tough
e tough gets goingright?
lijia said she'll just sit down n cry
perhaps i'm coming to tt stage."

FRET NOT my dearest! u can do it. anyway today i just reminded u about the hawparvilla+nydc+mustafa then u said u're never going to hawparvilla. in that instant, i was like, "WALAO ZIHUI IS TOTALLY LIKE HER AUNTIE. mean." hahahahahaha. anyway seriously have faith and it will pull you through, or so i always feel. im pretty sure A15 people will not retain or whatsoever. i dont know why.

and, um, im supposed to be studying haha. so BYE! miss everyone still. OH OH REPLIES TO TAGS. they will now be on my blog entries. all those who dont tag are real mean people who, if found out, will become the choco cupcakes like i promised. :)

ryl: hi! :)
steph: crystal jade is a NO NO.
matt: actually if u think about it, yeah. somewhere quaint which i dont know where!
huijie: EVERYDAY! ok maybe once per week for us cos walao please its nonedles!!

love all very much..

2006-09-28T13:59:00.000+08:00

LOOK AT THIS AMAZING PICTURE. if anyone has been to Night Studio, this IS Night Studio converted into a mortuary BY YOURS TRULY! and the help of some other templets. goodness i really love this picture. you dont know how long we templets slogged to get this done. cutting out cardboard sheets and wrapping them with foil, sticking them (and resticking them cos they were so naughty they didnt want to stick), sewing the white cloths to the benches....... and boy am i feeling nostalgic now looking back. tempers were the greatest group ever.

my bedroom hahaha.

hi all!! haha lost my discipline and came online for awhile. for only awhile i hope. sighs, not really in the mood to blog considering monday is doomsday becos despite reading the econs notes i remember no shit about what i just read 5minutes after. shit man. i'm really really dead. no joke. this is the worst time in my entire life. i've never felt so...... lousy in my studies before. I FEEL LIKE DYING REALLY. REALLY.

ah well. OH! a15 peepsyyyys, clara (and i! and angie!) are suggesting having dinner on friday night. the last paper for all of us except those taking art. we'll go somewhere quaint hopefully!! :D :D do say yes okay.. if not your poor ct councillor here has to have *gasp* dinner with family on the last day of promos?!?!?! we'll get Mr Tan to come along and hopefully pschyo him into treating (or at least subsidizing) us. say yes.

iiiiiiiiii stilllllllllll missssssssss myyyyyyyyyy bestiesssssssss which brings to mind (hey! suddenly remembered!) that i bumped into angela (babe!) this week! well it all happened when i went to her house downstairs to buy bread cos my house is pathetic and i was at the bustop towards home and i saw her!!! what a coincidence. took quite long for my mind to register; i looked for a couple of seconds before realising. but i still miss her. i miss her and huijie and cheryl and ming. cos i hardly see them. :( boo HOO!!! all must go out with me at least twice after promos. ALL.

i love strawberry flavoured lip glosses! nice to apply and look at and eat

oh and my uncle is away in Thailand so i hope he has the safest and most fun trip ever!

piggy back rides, sitting at bedok jetty whiling our days away.. all too much,

all too much.

hello angel

2006-09-24T22:36:00.000+08:00

came online cos i felt i wouldnt be able to study anymore. it probably is another one of my excuses. i feel utterly lazy, unproductive and just a stupid dumb girl. i cant get anything into my head and my laziness is egging that evil monster of an unproductive mentality on. i hope to pass all my subjects. thats such a...... wishful thinking on my part seriously. if i dont die it'd be good already. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah.

its late already and i should be sleeping so that i can wake up to study early tmr but im too lazy. i want to watch youtube bunnies and cute lil animals lolol.

just now i told my dad i need braces but he said that i ought to get gold teeth instead. lol! so mean he says i keep asking for unnecessary things! humph wait till he gets someone like jiahui as his daughter for his next life lolol! and when i was studying peacefully in my garden he pinched my cheeks. i HATE it when people touch my face know how dirty your hands are?!?!? in my lifetime only my dad and muthu (YOU muthu you!!) have pinched my cheeks before. nothing to say so,

bye world!

and through it all he offers me protection
a lot of love and affection
whether i'm right or wrong

what's love?

2006-09-23T11:50:00.000+08:00

what's love? i've always wondered what love is. and my perspective of love changes with the blink of an eye. i'm so fickle; one minute its having your heart beat uncontrollably and another minute is another something else. and right now, love to me is saving all my love for my future husband!! cheesy as it may sound, i really think this is the best take on love i can get at this age. plus its positive and beneficial. i wouldnt want to marry a man i know i've not kept my promises to. because that would mean a lifetime of guilt and regret. i dont want to ever have to divorce anyone this lifetime. because divorces/separations are hurtful, and knowing myself, i'd take ages to get over sad-and-heartbreaking-and-soul-shattering stuff like that. even puppy love i find soul shattering. or rather, i found, once.

ah well! i cannot bring myself to come to terms with the fact that TSD juniors are coming in so soon. wll i keep my promises about not treating them like slaves? will i teach them whatever i have learnt from TSD despite having an extremely busy year? will they listen to me and help me with my piece? will they bitch about us (HAHA) behind our backs? all these i really cant visualise. i really am going to try my best to be a nice senior. preferably like karmun(who's really sincere and kind with words)/glanies(who treated us kindly, bought us breakfast)/nicola(who made tuna cheese sandwiches for me and then later said i put on weight while modelling for her hmmm). ah this time of the year is when i always take some time out from work and zone out. and then just think about this year, all the things i've done, the friendships i've forged, the happiness/sadness, the birthday, the family, etc. and its been a great learning experience for me to be able to study in my alleged dream school, but yet develop into such a jaded individual because of the school. its both good and bad, happy and sad. i'm glad to have been allocated to 06a15, though initially i thought we'd never bond as a class, and perhaps not so much as to have reached that goal even now, but the people as individuals are really nice, and we do share underlying similiarities. and i'm happy because i cant imagine myself in other arts classes, TOTALLY! and the class is.... somewhat special and a good experience i'd remember this lifetime. the numerous things like family3, tsd public pee/promos/midyears, birthdays, aprils fool, racial harmony, etc. quite memorable now looking back arent they? :) and its funny how all of us hate school so much. i've never seen as many school-haters in my lifetime. ah.. and its jc2 next year. i think i'd cry when i'm studying for my A Levels and reflecting back on jc1 days... :( all the emceeing for vjc celebrations, forging friendships with councillors/teachers.. ah. seems like 4 years of secondary school has been squeezed into one.

yesterday we did our pre-Mr Ng-departure-celebration for Mr Ng. hahaha, was really funny. i suggested singing "auld lang syne" and we all did, eventually, though halfway we sidetracked and steph/mel sang i'm with you from the canteen all the way past a lecture and into class. and timothy the blur twit was like, "so we're singing what? i'm with you?" LOL! and i was like, "NO TIM!!!! auld lang syne!!!!" hahahahahahahahaahaha. then we crowded around him but because kokjun and kim didnt know about our plan, they took kinda long to come together and it spoilt the surprise :( but nevertheless it was fun! wanted to do Mr Ng's hypnotizing look while singing but everyone said it was mean LOL! couldnt bring myself too either, i'd break out into laughter. then we gave him a photoframe with our photo! and signed across it. really pretty, thanks to clara and angie who made the effort to get the present :D i'll miss Mr Ng. because he's such a nice brother to all of us.

and also... on a sad note, Mr Tang the kind and fun-loving p.e. teacher of ours is leaving to seek greener pastures. SO SAD!!!! i'd really really miss him!! :( he's so nice and fun and so relaxing and comforting. sighs. i really wish he wouldnt go. he's like so nice. he's one of my favourite teachers in vjc. how heartening indeed to see him leave. sighs. so i made a card on behalf of the class. actually i didnt think of it till i was studying at home and realised we should do something for him. my card was fugly. was kinda ashamed of it hahahaha. but i was worried there wasnt any time left so i did it myself. sighs! i think i'll go on failing napha tests worse without him around. boo hoo!!

i swear to get my life back after promos. dennis saw hasnt informed me about dimsum dollies and although i keep seeing him around i always forget to ask!! most probably in i think, or so it is rumoured. the show is at 7pm everyday from 2nd nov till 23rd nov. so i'm super free to go out in the day till late afternoon before i start work! oh and i cant believe dancefloor is on now. haha! and i'm at home! we decided to give it up cos of promos; its too taxing. but there are other competitions though small scale. we'll see.

dont know who told me my ugly family3 picture is on the vjc website, but i cant seem to find it! its the one holding on to the railing of the ride like some freak. lol. saw some national day emceeing pictures, weren't exactly flattering lol!

bye bye world! all the people i used to meet up with so often; i miss you all badly when i'm studying :(

bye bye world!

ah

2006-09-20T21:38:00.000+08:00

my mom and me in america back then.

feeling funny now. i dont know how to say it. just this weird premonition that something bad is going to happen soon. but i also have this premonition its all gonna be good in the end and beneficial to me long term. nobody knows what im saying cos i've never told anyone this. except jiahui possibly.

ah well so its a happy happy birthday to my dearest Mr Ming bestie, have a fabulous birthday and i love you! :) i wonder how you spent it. another year has passed. so fast like that.

that aside, i really wish promos can just fly past like now. i dread doing tsd promo preparation assignments so late in the night, knowing no shit about the concepts/styles/answering method. i think im really (like seriously) doomed for this coming exam. all the studying i've done so far is reading great expectations, which i am still a few chapters behind. how productive. i feel like killing myself. i miss swimming. its the best thing to do when stressed.

pw; putting it on hold for the time being. had some conflict which i have decided to ignore and put behind me till everything ends. the people who stand by and watch events unfold; whether good or bad ones; they DO NOT know wtf is going on. so dont say a word. dont bother speaking if it does not concern you. except clara angie and jiahui who are the only people i can share my pw thoughts with. if it wasnt for them i'd have done something bad. i dont know what. bad, that is. the rest of the fucking idiots, shut up thank you very much. (oops i didnt mean to say the f word but i couldnt help it cos thinking about people telling me what i should do really pisses the shit out of me. who do you think you are?) and poor poor mel's group which only consists of 2 members. my heart goes out to them. whats becoming of 06A15?

bye world!

it's getting cold these days.

2006-09-18T19:49:00.000+08:00

its's getting cold these days. everytime after i shower i feel as if i just stepped into an aircon room despite it being the kitchen. how terrible!! my hands keep shaking, wonder whats wrong with me. anyway i left my specs in school after tsd workshop, which sucks cos i can barely make out words on my computer screen. luckily have got a spare broken pair at home. i always break specs cos i manhandle them so i have lots lying around :)

btw today's tsd workshop was fun fun fun!! quite glad that we had workshop, it was quite enjoyable. i thought it'd be boring. but it was sooooooooooo. remarkably fun.! first we were divided into 3 groups. so jiahui, tim and i formed one group. then the middle person has to sit on a black box and be the translator within me and the other person. and!!!! the most FUN part is that we had to speak in gibberish, any weird stupid make up language we could come up with!!! and boy were jiahui and i glad, cos we ALWAYS invent stupid words in stupid languages only we understand hahaha! and we kept saying "usofuglyneh" which we tricked tim into believing last time that it means that he's cute. LOL! but he didnt believe. hahahahaha. it was pretty obvious la. so we spoke in crazy languages and i kept saying stupid sounding stuff like "toottootpok" and "baabaananeemo" hahahahahahahaha! so fun!!!!!!!!!! then after that it was counting numbers while closing our eyes (played this with cheryl and huijie before!), and we hit a brand new cool record of 99!! such a coooool number. what an achievement. i really feel us growing as a cohort :) from the bottom of my heart, and i really am glad for that. then afterwards we had impromtu skits, which were hell of a fun time!!! steph, tim, kyna and i formed a group. so the theme was "family" and i volunteered to be the grandmother HAHA! how fun. steph was um, some woman. my granddaughter i think. kyna too, but kyna's husband has an affair with steph's character. but i dont remember them mentioning it during the skit. tim was................ the grand butler, of all things :D

so i acted as like this grandmother on her death bed. and it was hilarious trying to cough so loudly to get steph's and kyna's attention, i totally laughed myself. and then i tried to like barge into their conversation twice. first time, tim put me back to my seat (damn that butler!), and the second time, steph took the chance TO LEAVE US THERE. how brilliant! hahahaha, and kyna then tried to kill me by massaging my on my neck on Lord it was so damn painfully i cried after that. it was really really painful. but actually, i dont know how come the tears just rolled down after that part. maybe its cos of something which i will say in the next paragraph, or maybe its cos i really have the ability to make myself cry in such a short period of time. was SO fun acting!! after i cried kyna got so super frantic and upset that she kept consoling me lol. and i felt kinda bad cos i dont know if it was my own real subconscious acting or whether it was cos of the pain. and kokjun was like, "wow your acting sure is realistic" lol! anyway, today groups or A Levels were out!!!!!!!! i'm in an all girls group, so damn surprising!! my groups consists of kyna, claire, mel, tanying and huiying. haha, kinda cool i feel. i'm sure we'd make a fabulous 6! but i have this vague suspicion we'd end up doing some sleazy prostitution musical like what mel and steph did for mid yrs this yr. hahahahaha. i mean so many girls! or it'll probably be like some girl talk chick flick kinda thing. something along the line :) thats my prediction! i was so shocked at first to be allocated to this group but after thinking about it, i know its gonna be a fun time! much excitement awaits!

okay so now, ya i have to talk about GP today. it was good yet sad. i received my latest compre results, did much better than ever before. so thats the good part. the sad part was Mr Teo showing a video of the Columbine High killing which happened kinda long ago. but they showed parts like the sept11 bombings, which i felt so strongly for while watching the clip. this incident has always went through my mind so quickly, i knew its a sad thing but i never really stopped to think about the impact it caused. until i saw the clip for myself and i realised its such a massive thing we shouldn't dismiss. its really sad. like REALLY ok. and then there's the real clip of the Columbine High killing which was a worse thing. they interviewed this girl and she explained about her close shave with death. its so..... unpredictable. argh just everything i could ever feel in a year was compressed all into my heart today. during GP. what a meaningful lesson, seriously. and i didnt know Marilyn Manson had so much depth. ha!

today after tsd we had a small talk with Mr Lofthouse in which he gave out our individual student profiles. hahahaha. the comments he gave me were:

-"vast improvements from the shy Minnie-mouse girl six months ago" HAHA, i really just wish they'd stop harping about me being minnie-mousey cos they always say my voice is too squeaky.

-"still reserved in class and workshops, and still tend to be a little clique-y in habits, yes?" hahaha, i suppose he's talking about jiahui and i cos she received the same "clique-y in habits" comment. ;)

-"often doze off too in lectures!!!!!" LOL caught red handed!!!!!!!!!!!

-"you seem to play the role of peacekeeper within a group due to your pleasant personaliy" HOW TRUE!!! no wonder they put me in the girls group, for me to be the nice one who sorts out arguements! :D

alright that was all that is to be shown to public. rest should be kept private. haha. God knows how many outside-tsd people come to my blog. maybe even the acjc tsd spys!!! kidding!

just reached home and had to blog. that night i watched this show, the nicholas cage one with tea longe. forgot the title. was a stay home saturday movie. really nice. love stay home saturday movies. anyway today i almost cried (dont say im whiney but it means alot to me) when i couldnt find shops which sold stamps. was really tired after having tsd and a full day of lessons. post office was closed and i had to take lotsa buses around cos jiahui's dad very kindly fetched me home but i requested him to drop me off at ITE college of the east, and he sure did, but i got lost! didnt know where i was so i took a bus (which took so long) to simpang bedok to see the post office closed. so i went opposite to 7-11 which ran out of stamps. and then opposite to all the rows of shops and almost fell dead when they said i should probably try simei mrt. which was freaking far cos i live just a few stops away and it was 7. thank God later i found this shop called i-Econ and it sold stamps. so so happy. i bought i tube of glue too! :D but i still forgot to pluck this flower from my school- it has the nicest leaves ever. but nevermind. did my important thing and went home sweet home.

..much love..

i hate noise.

2006-09-17T12:19:00.000+08:00

i hate loud banging noises, loud voices, everything loud and unnecessary. I HATE THEM! i've just realised how much i hate noises. especially at home. outside its fine cos its usually noisy anyway but i HATE HATE HATE loud noises within vicinity of my home.

anyway i think im just throwing a petulant tantrum. but i just hate it, it interrupts any peace i can get!!!! ah. my uncle bought 3 Coach/Prada keychains for my sis and i from his trip overseas. heehee. i really like them, they were the highlight of the boring day i spent studying yesterday. actually i dont mind being at home studying at my own pace sometimes. quite relaxing and it shuts all things horrible from the outside world, which i really need at this point of time. am contemplating whether or not to sign up for ogl this coming orientation. i mean its fun and its kinda like my type of fun cos im the cheering type but its kinda time consuming and meeting up with ogs after orientation has ended might clash with tsd next year. so im not sure but im going down for the interview anyway, cos u never know. it will be a great experience and great fun i know! steph's going, how totally amazing. and i dont have to pay for the $1 interview fee wahaha :D

have finally closed my friendster to outsiders, cos i think i want to keep my account private. and i need to delete some people from my list, but i dont know how. the delete function seems to be lost. and i hate testimonials which are copy paste types, like those "take care" types. hahaha, i deleted 5 already i think. how silly, cant these people be more sincere, tsk. tsd workshop tmr..... really wish i had that time to study for promos. its 4 periods of 35mins each which seems to pass so dreadfully slowly.... sighs. and then there's chinese before that. i dont know how many times i have forgotten to bring my textbook haha. yeah am finally done with my eom! so proud of it. have not gone anywhere except school and home this entire week. when promos are over im going to find my life back hopefully. want to go to the library to read books, want to go to my neighbourhood's dvd rental to borrow everything i've not watched, want to go so many places, our class' halloween party, chalets, sleepovers, meet-ups.

too little time!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

i've just decided i will not have a boyfriend till university.

london bridge (oh shit!)

2006-09-15T21:40:00.000+08:00

hi all! just received clara's tag which asked why she's the only one commenting. well well I KNOW THERE ARE MORE THAN steph/clara who read my blog. so irritating you all. basic courtesy to tag after reading some nice updates right! anyway today was a fine day, had lessons till 120pm then met Mr Tan for EOM, which was delayed cos his jc2 geog students had to speak to him. i mean they have prelims so its only right. after that, went home. today was a boring day so i wont say much. anyway clara helped me to insert a tagboard into my blog!! so you guys better tag. if i find out that people are reading my tagboard but not tagging, i'll.... i'll.. i wont do anything about it cos i dont know how to "find out" anyway. hahaha!

love,
lijia the internet noob

btw i love the spice girls!!

haha last night i saw some money on the table and i walked towards it with a slight tiptoe. and then i looked at it and touched it. then my dad suddenly turned around and saw me and he asked me what i was doing. then talk talk he gave me 50 and told me to give my sis 50. haha! i returned her share back to him and said my sis dont want.

my uncle:
Andy : Some cows are hardworking, some are not. Some jus turn mad !!! says:
i go cook my noodle now...pls do me a favor and patch up with your only sister. both of u are my loved ones!

actually, i'm thankful for everything.

2006-09-14T22:10:00.000+08:00

heya, today was quite a pleasant little nice day. mainly cos it was slack slack slack all the way! haha and jiahui and i got kinda crazy over "supernatural powers", which has been our theme this week. i know it sounds stupid but its REALLY FUN! you just imagine what sort of super power you'd like to have and then we'd come up with crazy ideas about how to become invisible, how to steal exam scripts/answers, box people who we detest, rob high end boutiques, etc. its so amazingly therapeutic after days and days of daunting school life!! :D well it all started during breaktime when our class gathered at the canteen tables and began talking about supernatural powers. haha. angie said she'd fly high up into the sky and i said that she might hit the ceiling of the earth. hahahaha! which everyone laughed. but i believe in that cos the earth is round so u're bound to hit something, no?? or maybe u'll just keep floating upwards and get your head stuck between two fat clouds haha! how i loooooove thinking about such stuff, really takes my mind off from projectwork, WHICH I AM STILL DOING AAAAAH. BEEN 3 DAYS SINCE I'VE COME ONLINE CONSECUTIVELY! and i hate it! but nevermind, since Mr Tan lied to me that the written report has improved. then later he told angie, who in turn spilled the secret to me, "lijia is very pressurized, so u guys must help her. i lied to her that her written report was good." i semi appreciate it but semi want to strangle him :) anyway today he asked me to divide the word count into the different categories (3000 divide by 7) and i couldnt do mental calculations so i used the laborious mathematical approach to do the diagram all and he laughed like i was some kid. what, over 16 years of age must use calculator/metal sums meh?

anyway back to topic of supernatural powers, it really fascinates me!! like ALOT! and jiahui likes to say "maybe im invisible already" when people dont reply/look at her. then i will pretend to stare into her body and all and say "hey where are you!!" hahahahahahahahaha! super childish and i did it like 10 times today damn funny! she says my reflex reaction damn stupid. lol but reflex reactions ARE reflex reactions what, cant help but do it. anyway then i also lied to her that i checked the internet for potions to become invisible and came up with some kukupoot webbie which i then said that if she cant see the webbie means she's invisible already hahahaha! of cos she didnt believe la. and we also tried to come up with silly chants and actions which might make us invisible suddenly. hahahaha! jiahui laughed damn hard at my inventions. damn funny i laughed till i had stitches. during econs lecture we were not paying attention and laughing away, how unproductive! weighing cost against benefit, what do i get?

today jiahui and i came up with sophisticated names for ourselves. hahaha! mine is keira danielle gaultier and hers is sophia chanelle prada LOLOLOLLLLL mine more high class, cos her prada is too in-your-face prada kinda thing. hahaha! so fun so thats how we spent econs tutorial. our econs teacher btw, looks ALOT more better after curling her hair for $200 at Jean Yip. so expensive, somemore her hair so short. aiyah but she really looks a whole lot better. its strange how hair can change your appearance so much.

i've decidedto showcase my disgusting monologue, ya the very ugly freckly me with specs one, for VJC open house this year on 14th October. its going to be fun, so i thought i'd do my part for tsd too. speaking of which, i have done, *gasp!* nothing for. haha. matt/steph/mel/jason were clapping their hands gleefully when i announced it. horrors, my own class anticipating me looking silly and uglyfugly. anyway so..... i have to memorise it, which is the horror of horrors. had a hard time memorising the 3 minutes showing that time round already. btw tmr's friday, yippee!! i really just feel like coming home to sleep and study everyday.

much love to huijiecherylangela whom i've not seen for LONGGGG!!! :( love.

anyway whenever jiahui refers to us as lovers, i think its damn gross lol but she sure aint kidding she just sent me a mail which she had to add "love ya" just for AN EMAIL oh gosh. lol, kinda funny.

brand new blog, brand new thoughts!

2006-09-13T17:58:00.000+08:00

haha, yay, teachers day celebrations and family3 pictures are up already! all cos proactive angie took the initiative to print them :) right above is the family3 carnival, the just above these words are the teachers with us during the mini teachers day celebration we had for them. in that celebration, we even said that it was my birthday so they'd come and not suspect! (wasn't my idea! haha) and it turned out fine anyway, still feels funny having my math teacher wanting to shake my hand eagerly but me having to break the news gently to her. see, clara! make me so guilty. lol but it was great cos we HAD to honour the teachers for being so kind to us. really. anyway zihui looks so happy holding huajia and me in her arms. lol, we 3 look like best friends or something wahaha. when i was taking the picture and Mr Tan came over to the side i was like "wah hope he ont block me" hahaha! seems like he didnt! :D he likes to raise his eyebrows when taking pictures, as noted by the diligent steph and clara who were discussing the pictures and not listening to me read a ke wen during chinese lesson! :( mel and steph look like angels in the family3 pic. hahahaha, well i know mel is one for sure, but steph... hmmm. i know she is darn wicked and evil to naughty boys like the one in the dvd teacher showed us. and i thought that boy was cute as in good looking cute. and i still think he is haha.

okay having tuition soon. just woke up from a nap which was heaven. :D much love all.

i know, i know. thank you

Love Actually

2006-09-12T22:51:00.000+08:00

Both Sides, Now
by Joni Mitchell

Rows and flows of angel hair
And ice cream castles in the air
And feather canyons everywhere
I've looked at clouds that way
But now they only block the sun
They rain and snow on everyone
So many things I would have done
But clouds got in my way
I've looked at clouds from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's cloud illusions I recall
I really don't know clouds at all

Moons and Junes and Ferris wheels
The dizzy dancing way you feel
As ev'ry fairy tale comes real
I've looked at love that way
But now it's just another show
You leave 'em laughing when you go
And if you care, don't let them know
Don't give yourself away
I've looked at love from both sides now
From give and take, and still somehow
It's love's illusions I recall
I really don't know love at all
Tears and fears and feeling proud
To say "I love you" right out loud
Dreams and schemes and circus crowds
I've looked at life that way
But now old friends are acting strange
They shake their heads,
they say I've changed
Well something's lost, but something's gained
In living every day
I've looked at life from both sides now
From win and lose and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all

I've looked at life from both sides now
From up and down, and still somehow
It's life's illusions I recall
I really don't know life at all..

sighs, i could watch loveactually over&over again never ending just me and my love affair with the show and its beautiful soundtrack. im tired but i cant sleep. again.

stop the clocks.

2006-09-12T20:32:00.000+08:00

lol here's a kiss to welcome everyone to my new blog!